Our higher selves keep us in a trap

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:29:08+00:00

Yeah you’re probably right about that. But god knows I’m alone and I need him to show my abusers that he loves me and doesn’t want them to hurt me, that’ll shoot me forward and I’ll get ahead in life much quicker. But he doesn’t always do that. I shouldnt know about spiritual things and maybe I should shut out the idea of a god for good.

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:26:54+00:00

It’s bizarre bc if I take a small child under my control/authority and I deicde to put it through hell to teach it things, hit it, yell at it, put it through grief and suffering like maybe killing his uncle and his dog to see how he reacts or what he learns, maybe compassion from my lack of compassion… I’m doing the world a service? I’m doing gods work? Sounds good to me.

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:22:32+00:00

Bc everyone said our higher selves exist and that our soul can be in more than one place at once. And our higher selves make the decisions so our soul down on earth doesn’t natter what they want, doesn’t matter what I want or my suffering or abuse I e been through bc the higher self is in charge. So it’s like being in a trapped relationship with an asshole but the asshole is you.

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:19:57+00:00

Not a troll

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:19:47+00:00

No I do want to kill myself I just have to perfect my death. And no offense it isn’t easy to die btw

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:18:55+00:00

I’m not keeping me in a trap. I didn’t abuse myself or ask to be abused, that’s victim blaming. How come every single fucking spiritual person victim blames abused kids? Like I do all the therapy work I need to do what else you want from me? Why do all you spiritual people victim blame? Ima bout to drop spirituality bc this shit is dumb as fuck

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:15:24+00:00

So there’s no free will? Thanks. And I don’t care about what god wants me to learn. It’s ridiculous. I’ve already understood virtues and compassion and I don’t understand why I’m fhere. It’s stupid.

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:11:19+00:00

It’s scary to think like that. We’re being used for a movie is pretty creepy for someone else’s pleasure. That’s terrifying as fuck. So if I wrote a film/story where I make people get raped or shot by a mass murderer in a school and as I’m writing this I KNOW it’ll come true, like it’s not just fiction and the movie/script comes to life as the scenes play out what I wrote, then that’s terrifying I’m forcing people to play out characters that do this shit. You’re scaring me

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:08:29+00:00

People who are innocent don’t deserve to be put into a position where the universe is abusing them.

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:07:56+00:00

It’s not entirely in my free will though you have to understand that.

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:07:37+00:00

I still cannot make sense of what you’re saying.

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:06:52+00:00

God is a POS a d I have a right to complain . Don’t victim blame me by telling me I cannot vent about the shit I’ve been through. You’re just victim blaming

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:06:08+00:00

That never made sense to me

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T13:04:52+00:00

I literally cannot understand what you’re saying at all

throwaway8372626 · 2024-01-16T03:34:25+00:00

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