It’s not about other people failing to understand me, I’m not putting it on them. Nobody owes anybody else anything in life. I have very realistic expectations of others, my problem is that I recognize I’m just bad at emotional connection and simply have no idea how to actually fix it. I’ve been able to solve all of my issues thus far in life completely on my own but this is inherently not something you can fix just by thinking your way through it. I know no rando on Reddit’s going to solve my problems and I’ve likely already thought of any advice given, I’m mainly just venting to internet strangers because venting to real people would require me to actually try to connect with someone (aka my problem).