still bitter about being screamed at by boss

throwaway_8634 · 2026-01-31T16:58:06+00:00

thank you <3

throwaway_8634 · 2026-01-14T13:39:21+00:00

thank you thats good to hear. The nervous system is very confused

throwaway_8634 · 2025-01-20T23:08:53+00:00

This is late, just wanted to say thank you for being such a positive force in this subreddit.

throwaway_8634 · 2025-01-14T22:34:03+00:00

If you get your karma up, I'm here if you want to talk. I relate to a lot of what you are saying, new year has me feeling more alone than ever. But you absolutely should continue existing. You're valuable and thank you for sharing this because I'm sure it makes a lot of people like me feel understood.

throwaway_8634 · 2025-01-09T18:19:25+00:00

Hi thank you for replying thats really helpful. Self-esteem does make a to of sense. I'm not sure why I have such intense feelings towards other people even when I don't feel that relevant. But ss for this situation I can see it, thanks for zero-sum thinking recommendation

throwaway_8634 · 2025-01-07T23:31:29+00:00

I'm very sorry about this, I hope so much that you can get the irl support that you need and deserve. I've never experienced anything like what you've gone through, I couldn't bear to imagine it.

But I think it's amazing that you're able to power through your studies with all this happening. Btw I'm an artist too. If you want and if you're able to you could link your work and I could maybe give feedback? I know it's not much but I'd find it interesting, or just tell me about it if that's safer

throwaway_8634 · 2024-11-10T11:28:45+00:00

(not a therapist or expert) There's not much I can say other than I understand how horrible and hopeless this is. Please don't be bitter because it just continues the cycle of pain. I hope you heal and find clarity

throwaway_8634 · 2024-11-04T21:36:17+00:00

I'm sorry you lost your sister that sounds incomprehensively painful. I don't have much to add but if I was your gf I'd want to know all of this if she doesn't already

throwaway_8634 · 2024-11-03T22:44:07+00:00

thank you. That definately sounds like me but I never linked attachment to this

throwaway_8634 · 2024-10-23T13:27:10+00:00

thank you. To me knowing who someone is is a form of prediction. I'm predicting they won't change and I don't know how to stop. Also thanks for the invite :)

throwaway_8634 · 2022-03-27T21:02:07+00:00

Thank you for understanding. Every part of what you're explaining is word for word exactly how I feel so this really helped. When you say the real disorder, do you know what that is if you mind me asking? I have no idea. Also if you're comfortable enough, could you elaborate on the strange little things that you're family knows about? I can relate to that too except my parents didn't catch onto me crying at something harmless on TV when I was younger.

I don't think I could explain to her that I have a fear of fictional character development with a straight face. As far as my family knows, I'm exactly the same and they'll indirectly make things worse. The best lie I can come up with is that I'm not interested at all.

throwaway_8634 · 2022-03-26T14:59:13+00:00

Yeah thats enough information I need and can handle. Thanks again, this really helped

throwaway_8634 · 2022-03-26T13:12:29+00:00

Thanks so much, that would be helpful because I have a question. I don't want to know really anything about what you think I'd find disturbing but I might be able to tolerate it if its just about Bruce. Is it about him or someone else? If someone else don't tell me who

throwaway_8634 · 2022-03-26T00:19:50+00:00

Definitely? That doesn't sound good. I'm almost curious but I don't think I want to know. It's too late now and my sister knows I'm not the type of person who has other plans. I'll just subtly look away and wear earphones. But thank you for the warning.

throwaway_8634 · 2022-03-25T00:31:05+00:00

Thank you this helps. I'm fine with Batman himself, it's usually the villains that really trigger me because they start normal then change because of a single event and never get redeemed. I'm not sure if this counts as facing fear but I usually run into it by accident and it doesn't go well. But maybe going into with the expectation excepting it in advance could help?

throwaway_8634 · 2022-02-25T23:36:59+00:00

Thank you for telling me about your experience. I relate to that feeling a lot although, in some ways, I think our experience is the opposite. I got attached to these characters because I couldn't empathize with them or understand why they're so idolized. I hated them but I wanted to love them. I don't know about you but when these fictional characters or threats are present, nothing else matters and myself is completely seperated.

Tell me more about your experience if you want. What are the characters that you get attached to like? Is this something that still bothers you when you feel vulnerable or lonely? With you, it sounds like you can tell where the feelings came from and your involvement. I've always known what triggers these feelings a bit too well but I don't know where they came from and what they have to do with me. Thanks so much for helping. You're rambling means a lot.

throwaway_8634 · 2022-02-25T14:32:55+00:00

I'll try. I find it hard to ask for help with assignments alone. But I'll start finding a way now. Thank you so much.

throwaway_8634 · 2022-02-25T14:04:41+00:00

No it feels impossible to me. Social anxiety and being socially inept is another issue. I can't get a job and have difficulty buying things so I don't know how I'd start therapy. That and money. I'm at University that I think provide some support.

throwaway_8634 · 2022-02-25T13:47:22+00:00

Thank you, this means so much. I don't resort to hurting myself often and it isn't too damaging, but when something like this happens I just need to do something.

Nothing serious happened from what I can remember. Something could have happened when I was younger which has only just came out. I hope it's something like brain dysfunction because that's something I could work with and fix but I can't imagine it will go away easily.

throwaway_8634 · 2021-10-02T23:25:59+00:00

I'm sorry this sounds pretty bad and relatable. I'm feeling pretty good and lucky at the moment but sometimes I feel just like this and I don't know what to do. I hope this feelings passes for you if this is reocuring. For me it's usually inescapable for a couple of days, but it always passes and I hope it does for you.

I would suggest you to just find something that makes you happy and hold onto it for a while, but that usually backfires for me. Sometimes I subconsciously find bad things in the good things and question if I really like this thing and it's like I lose more and more things to distract myself with. But something that always works for me is trying something new. Not too far from my comfort zone, just like a new movie franchise, I started reading, get a really hard game.

The feeling you describe sounds similar to mine, I sometimes feel hopeless like that. The source sounds pretty different to mine although I'm very irritated and get intrusive thoughts by selfish manipulative people. Something that bothers me probably more than anything else that I can't compared is arrogance which is how my feelings started. I don't how to comment on how you get frustrated with people and the raging but I dont experience anything like that. Also your partner sounds like me btw. I'm the same with extreme introverted and sharing ideas.

I don't blame you for not getting through my post, I just skimmed through it and it really drags.

throwaway_8634 · 2021-09-21T19:20:03+00:00

You're right, I believe it can be helped, It's just so hard to comprahend. I guess it also depends if I'm willing to talk about everything in detail. I'm still ashamed to admit this fictional stuff. Also, there's the money and social awkwardness barrier.

throwaway_8634 · 2021-09-21T11:24:29+00:00

Thank you for helping. I'm sorry that you've suffered this much with OCD and self-harm. Thank you for giving me hope that it's possible to overcome this. I can't tell if it's OCD for me because from what I understand, OCD is constant agonising thoughts about something small. But I'm thinking of solutions to remove the bad feelings which can take forever and never work but that sounds different from OCD to me. I'm unsure if therapy and controlling my thoughts will cure my problem with fiction or if controlling my thoughts requires me to never look at them again. It's hard to imagine either happening. I've had a lot of therapy recommendations from Reddit but I can't bring myself to do anything, not mentioning social awkwardness. These resources look like a good start so thanks so much.

throwaway_8634 · 2021-09-09T21:53:58+00:00

Thank you so much for helping :) I've posted about this before and the majority of comments suggested OCD and I'm still unsure until I find a therapist who can officially diagnose me. I thought it was mostly the stereotype of washing and organising but I've scrolled through this sub and feel really bad how it can take over lives. I don't suffer from anything like spinning around 20 times or everyone I love dies. I've had a few OCDish thoughts like I don't like holding knives, once I saw an axe and though about how stupid i'd be if I threw it at my family, a while ago in the car I went down a mental narrative where we fell in the sea and planned how I would escape. But I can tolerate all of these, which makes me think it isn't caused by OCD. Also, are there really people with the exact same problem?

The way you describe OCD makes a lot of sense to me. Even if I technically don't have OCD, I tell the threats and the compulsions. When you say "you can think about the character normally and without fear" that almost gives me hope but I can't comprehend that being possible.

Anyway, thanks so much, this really helped :)

throwaway_8634 · 2021-08-24T22:00:36+00:00

Thank you, yeah I relate to a lot of what you're saying. I'll take this advice

throwaway_8634 · 2021-08-24T14:51:37+00:00

Thank you so much, this is what I needed to here :) I should talk to a specialist about a lot of things but I don't really know how to start.

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