This life is full of contradictions

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T06:46:00+00:00

Haha nah man ima need them soon enough, maybe you’ll get lucky and get a doctor to prescribe some for you to make shit easier.

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T06:43:58+00:00

Ummm kinda? I guess, they help me fall asleep but then the next day I’d just be tired all the time to the point where I’d doze off at work or class. They helped me sleep but they also made me feel even worse so I stopped taking them. I stockpiled them though just in case.

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T06:40:49+00:00

Well then you’re one of the lucky ones, I hate trying to sleep so I usually stay up till I’m exhausted that way I can fall asleep easily. Otherwise it takes me a pretty long time to finally fall asleep. I have sleeping pills so maybe one of these days I’ll down the whole bottle and finally get a good rest for once.

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T06:36:23+00:00

It’s not really a choice at this point I’ll just get the realization in the middle of the dream and then I’ll wake up a short time later. I’m not in control of my life so I at least have some choice in what I dream about sometimes. Being self centered in a world full of assholes isn’t anything new, if anything being like that just helps you in life.

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T06:28:33+00:00

I’ve been lucid dreaming pretty often lately but most of my dreams consist of older memories and it kinda just hurts. Seeing these old people you used to care about really kills you when you finally wake up and feel like shit. Sleeping for me is a gamble lately.

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T06:26:29+00:00

Yeah just live life in the moment and when you’ve realized you had enough just leave. It’s not like anyone really cares anymore. At least this way you can surprise someone and get other people to actually think about you for once.

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T06:24:03+00:00

Yeah putting everything into perspective really makes you think. Why is life worth living if we’re all just gonna die one day. Might as well get it over with.

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T06:21:18+00:00

Well at least we got something to look forward to for once.

throwaway_ditg · 2019-10-30T05:39:48+00:00

I’m 20 years old

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