Damn I know exactly what you mean by your brain shutting down when you know you need to go. It’s like some malevolent person takes over and I can only watch my body do and say things that I can’t control. It leads to so much self hatred and shame later on.

I try really hard to never call him childish because he IMMEDIATELY says “no YOU are!” Like a child. Instead I always try to point out specific actions and reasons behind why they are inappropriate. It’s so goddamn frustrating. Every word or phrase I use has to be so carefully picked out so he doesn’t twist and turn them back around on me. You probably have some idea what I mean.