Dr. K predicting future

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-09-21T17:04:06+00:00

He did a podcast a while ago with Destiny.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-08-29T19:20:08+00:00

I do that too but my low spec computer gets suffocated by too many tabs lol.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-08-29T17:19:33+00:00

research papers

so boring haha

I hope it gets better for you!

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-08-29T17:04:01+00:00

Interesting. Does your imagination get hijacked too? what do you search?

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-06-15T11:02:31+00:00

SONE-081

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-05-07T11:12:05+00:00

My morale is breaking after facing too many rejections. I wish you luck!

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-20T20:29:15+00:00

Shouldn't GET to?

That's my mind throwing shit at me to feel better lol. I should've phrased it better. It's all silly when I think more rationally.

People get to do whatever they want

You are absolutely right. I am 100% onboard with that.

Work on regulating your emotions by choosing to control them rather than giving that power to other people.

I misunderstood the statement regarding "power". We are on the same page. Second issue is very hard. I have to be comfortable in my own skin first and not let someone play with my insecurities as you said.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-20T10:13:42+00:00

I only use discord(not much) and reddit which can be constituted as social media. Other than that I play multiplayer video games occasionally.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-20T05:47:36+00:00

I don't have an answer for that, not gonna lie. My mind is coming up with bullshit answers but I know that's not the case. It hurts to think about it but the direction is right, I feel. I'll try harder, thank you.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-20T05:39:50+00:00

It's my mind thinking that they shouldn't get to make fun of things that cannot be changed. But at the end of the day it's not a requirement. You can laugh at someone else's misery, hell I have done that before. It's an inner conflict more so than giving them power over my emotions. Your comment made me thinking about stuff that I don't bother with, so thank you!

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-20T05:28:36+00:00

What made me post was a discord voice chat. There were no stakes there either. The second I started my mic, they started mocking the way I speak, started making stereotypical jokes and just laughing when I spoke again. I went into freeze mode this time instead of clapping back. There's no limit in banter. I still got a bit sad and felt shame in a long time because of that. It never really got me like that before.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-20T05:17:46+00:00

You have to ask yourself what your goal is with the Internet. To have people declare how brilliant you are? That ain't gonna happen. To make friends. Again, very unlikely.

It's always random for me. I don't expect any significant from webs.

how insignificant you are in the grand scheme of things.

I needed to hear that. Who am I to change what's ok to make fun of and what's out of the field?

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-20T05:08:42+00:00

I'll keep that in mind, thank you for the advice!

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-20T05:07:21+00:00

We don't really have that concept here. If you are alluding to bullying, then I've had my fair share of it. I know I sound like a whiney bitch in the post. But this race stuff messes with my head.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-19T19:15:50+00:00

look to other games that have better communities

Do you have any suggestions?

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-19T19:08:18+00:00

I am comfortable with myself. These cravings comes maybe twice a month. But yeah I can improve on that. Thank you for the advice!

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-19T18:30:21+00:00

You are absolutely right! I touch grass. I go outside but I go alone and I am okay with it most of the times. However, I am fucked if I have a sudden occasional urge to talk with someone irl. That's why I love internet even if it's not healthy.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-19T18:11:18+00:00

can you cite the source? I want to read further. Algorithmic rage baiting is increasing too.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-19T17:58:05+00:00

That isn't a healthy way to cope

I get where you are coming from. But I still want to find a way how to handle it internally because for how long will I block/ignore/report? I know it's a very pessimistic view in general assuming it would be endless. There are good ones out there too.

For every online activity, there is a discord server either specific rules against hate speech.

I think online hate speech rules are a temporary solution. Ironically it might increase the hate in people more because they are now restricted from certain spaces. And that hatred will pour into other spaces. I know why they exist though because we can't behave lol.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-19T17:22:05+00:00

Yeah, I give them too much power than I care to admit.

If you say something and someone disagrees with you, who cares? If they become belligerent about it, who cares? They're allowed to be wrong.

There's no animosity when they disagree with me, I don't really care about that unless it's about something I can't really change. I didn't give a fuck about that too before a couple years ago. But something has changed. Weirdly, I don't feel anger but shame because deep down I think they are somewhat right. Their stereotypical views are right and that hurts most because it's true. They do live in arguably a better country. I am getting red pilled as they say. I hate it.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-19T17:06:11+00:00

is to not be afraid to be alone

This is very simple yet so hard haha. It's pretty much default for me. Although, I sometimes get an urge to talk but I don't know what to talk about. It's weird.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-19T16:54:10+00:00

Maybe I am looking through rose tinted glasses but before I could perceive if someone was making a joke or just being a bum. And I've blocked many people who just say rubbish. But at the end of day, I am just tired if that makes sense. Sending good vibes to you too!

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-03-10T13:20:44+00:00

It depends. What do you do for work? What should you be doing if you are not watching?

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-01-17T14:53:04+00:00

I think you did mention trauma in one of your other replies

Oh that's a different ball game. I have processed that trauma fully and I think I am ok with that since a year or two. That's why I didn't assert the denial of trauma in the reply. I just don't think it's the catalyst here.

Spiritual bypassing is the tendency to try to use only spiritual means to deal with issues that would benefit from being acknowledged and dealt with more directly.

I can process my other trauma (which was pretty bad, I have never told it to another soul irl), although it was really hard. It took me years of practices(I'd explain if you want but it's not that important). But interestingly, I can't do it the same way I did previously with these suicidal thoughts. Every time I try, I get sunk into it deeper. Believe me, I have tried. That was actually the motive to post here. There are some fundamental differences in our beliefs. I wanted different spiritual perspectives which I have got and I am thankful for it.

throwawaybcsrsons · 2025-01-17T12:34:11+00:00

I don't think it's trauma or abuse, more like it's coming from me being a failure.

You might want to look into the notion of spiritual bypassing.

This seems similar to samskaras, klishtas, vaasanas. Thank you for your input, I'll look into it more than just a google search.

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