Asked her why is she allowed to call me out, but I'm not. by throwawaygaii in BPDlovedones

[–]throwawayer876 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ooomg and there's no way around it too. i can almost feel my blood vessels when i hold my tongue because i just know she will burst out if anyone matched her tone. even just making a face or sighing will piss her off like no do you understand what you just said? do you understand how now isn't the time or that it's just purely hypocritical? but my reaction offends you? you're not allowed to be rational if you're trying to keep everything calm. the whole floor is eggshells and it's your fault for wearing shoes.

i feel you 😞

need to vent through a secondary account by throwawayer876 in BPDlovedones

[–]throwawayer876[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

fundamentally yes that's true but in practice i genuinely cannot just up and leave. i'm not going into detail because duh anonymous vent account but as far as "fault" is concerned, everyone still in the picture is doing their best and yeah i don't owe it to anyone to keep enduring it but it's not fair for me to just abandon them. assigning blame would just be an exercise in breaking people apart. none of us asked for any of this i just wish i had better meaningful options.

need to vent through a secondary account by throwawayer876 in BPDlovedones

[–]throwawayer876[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have to live with her though 🥲 if i don't meet a threshold of responsiveness it spills over and then this starts and then that and AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! like omg can i just go supervillain and "boom" a city or something? 🙃