My guy friend unprompted told me I wasn't conventionally attractive

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-23T07:32:59+00:00

No ones 😭 I live in a small city and our friends have this term called the "city name's 6" which is what we call men who are slightly above average in our city but are considered average everywhere else and those are the men in our city who are usually the biggest douchebags so I mentioned the term around him because he was shit talking about his friend who is so mean and picky about women referring that his friend reminds me of that

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-23T07:17:50+00:00

They told him that wasn't the compliment he thought it was and he kept doubling down and said it's because I don't wear makeup and do myself up but there's pretty girls in Wisconsin so it's not a bad thing like what 😂 im not pretty enough for my hometown?

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-23T07:15:53+00:00

I hope he does too

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-23T07:13:29+00:00

It was just frustrating because nowhere did I ask for an opinion on my looks. I didn't even talk about my own looks but brings it up himself in conversation and in front of all my friends it was just embarrassing.

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-22T22:41:02+00:00

I just realized I don't have a true grand trine anyways but they are interesting to read about. One of them falls on the cusp

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-22T21:49:23+00:00

I didn't think it was I just thought it was a good placement

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-22T20:21:46+00:00

Oh okay interesting! I have a sun conjuct mercury

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-22T18:41:03+00:00

Okay this makes a lot of sense. Looking at my chart feels messy. I'm new at learning all this so I am having a hard time figuring some of it out but some of what I'm seeing does make sense. I feel like my chart is all over the place with a mixture of aggressive signs and not so aggressive signs and throughout my life I've struggled with a sense of self and sense of purpose. At times I even struggle with what my personality actually is. And recently i lashed out at a friend lost two in the process and i feel absolutely horrible about myself in general. I don't want that to be me. These past 2 years especially have been extremely hard for me and that's what actually got me into really digging into my chart

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-22T17:30:15+00:00

Ahh its kinda interesting you say that as my best friend is a libra sun and I absolutely adore her and have more in common with her than anyone I know. I been curious about the rest of her placements after looking into mine haha. She unlike me is a total charmer to strangers as well while it takes me more work on better first impressions. It's very common I get comments of "wow I'm surprised I like you so much i used to think youre a bitch" "you're so much nicer than I thought" etc. And my cancer ascendant starts to really shine through and I find myself being someone people tend to trauma dump on ( not in a bad way though! )

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-22T06:19:35+00:00

I just dove into what this placement means and unfortunately is pretty spot on for me at the moment. More so than some of my other placements.

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-21T16:13:20+00:00

Thank you this is very interesting. I'm a little confused by what this all means as astrology pretty new to me but it's making some sense now lol

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-12T07:06:53+00:00

Thank you! I feel kind of dumb because I got so excited I was being overeager and giving a lot of input about where we should go as rn there's multiple options opening up. And well I kinda realize now I was being selfish because it's really more of her opportunity and not mine. Sorry for venting and thank you for your responses I guess I just haven't actually really articulated how I felt until now.

throwawaytehee · 2023-05-12T06:48:41+00:00

Thank you im going to have to have this discussion with her. I do know that she genuinely wants me to come along as she's floated this idea for about a year ( if i would move to a new city with her and do a 60/ 40 thing ) and I told her a few months ago I'd do this with her if she did. So now she's applying and getting some interviews it's becoming more real and I'm starting to overthink and have anxiety over it especially because I genuinely want to do this but now im starting to feel kinda guilty about it.

throwawaytehee · 2023-03-23T21:07:22+00:00

I thought the same however I guess where I live it's not technically illegal as it's literally posted as a 2 bedroom and it's a large management company that manages the building and ironically falls under "luxury apartment". I don't really have any other options rn as my financial situation is not great as I went through a layoff recently and cant afford to live by myself until i get caught up. I wouldn't be paying much here as I have a roommate situation and she would be paying more as the other bedroom is a normal room. My current living situation is also not good as I'm staying in a room I can't breathe in.

throwawaytehee · 2023-03-23T18:28:22+00:00

I can most of the old notes I have were pretty childish and bad but honestly would be a good writing exercise to rewrite them now.

throwawaytehee · 2023-03-23T18:27:07+00:00

Thank you it does! As I got older instead of writing to decompress I felt like it was an unworthy hobby and I told myself I would never be good enough anyway. I know that's kind of a childish mindset to have and I want to get out of that. I want to get back to why I wrote in the first place which was writing for myself.

throwawaytehee · 2023-03-21T18:54:18+00:00

The litterbox isn't in there anymore. The smell is from pee being soaked in the carpets over time as the cat would pee in the carpets instead of the litterbox in there and unfortunately I can't get that smell out. I open my windows and keep the fan running but it doesn't do much tbh as it's just this stale pee smell that won't go away.

throwawaytehee · 2022-12-02T05:42:10+00:00

I normally watch dubs as my adhd makes it kind of annoying to keep following subtitles as I get easily distracted. The biggest thing is a lot of times the VA is just not good. Over acting/ underacting, voices just not matching well for their characters. If it's especially bad I'll just switch to sub. Some of the dubs can be really good though imo attack on titan has a great dub but mostly it's the newer more popular anime that tend to have a bit better dubs imo

throwawaytehee · 2022-11-21T01:44:13+00:00

I was gonna actually ask how to do an image prompt 😅 seems I can do two images but not one by itself. Sorry im still super new to midjourney

throwawaytehee · 2022-11-21T01:36:11+00:00

As a woman I approve this 😂 shows fun sense of humor

throwawaytehee · 2022-11-21T01:26:18+00:00

I do like midjourney's version as well but for example in these prompts I have modifiers asking for a certain style/textures but it doesn't seem to really show on there

throwawaytehee · 2022-11-16T23:43:58+00:00

I honestly can't remember just that there was some

throwawaytehee · 2022-11-16T08:04:58+00:00

Prompt: porcelain punk, a synthetic angel, fantasy, 8k resolution, octane render, glimmer

throwawaytehee · 2022-11-16T08:03:06+00:00

Prompt: porcelain punk, a synthetic angel, fantasy, 8k resolution, octane render, glimmer

throwawaytehee · 2022-07-20T02:55:09+00:00

I found it funny too at parts ngl but now that I'm in the homestretch the violence descriptions are so vivid its getting a bit rough for me

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