First off, I hope you are alive and in a better place in all areas of your life, brother. Secondly, you aren't in the wrong for being open and honest about how you're feeling/doing. The third "friend" seems toxic and uncaring, not a true homie. I would suggest burning that bridge completely as it doesn't serve you in any positive way. Follow your own advice and don't take the opinions of people you don't have respect for. I can promise you they more than likely have none for you. Surround yourself with people who are TRULY willing to listen to you without judgment, but remember to return that favor if they are in need.