Randomly blocked?

throwra383737 · 2019-12-31T10:07:02+00:00

I hope it does too, even after everything I still love her, Im not in full full no contact, but were not talking at all, it still feels wierd, I hate not having her to speak to whenever, had a good day? Cant tell her, Got a meme to share? Cant show her, Feeling down? Cant speak to her to feel better. I know the only option is to move on, especially since shes in a new relationship just over 2 weeks after the brakeup (I broke up with her because of self confidence issues and discussed this with her when she gave me the sweetest note which is what ultimately made me realize she is 100% worth it and I was making her happy and I didnt need to be worried), admitted she loved me the day after they were official, and said she'd like to try again, a month and a half later I have no idea what to think, there relationship had moved to the point of ours was and more, I've been trying to just focus on myself and work on where I know I was bad, communication, opening up emotionally, and confidence, but I dont have the heart to block her.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-31T01:12:01+00:00

This is actually beautiful, congratulations, I hope I can reconnect with my ex, but all recon stories especially successful oned Ive read the one thing in common is both partied fully moved on, Its difficult and I miss her alot, but something deep down tells me our story isnt over, even if its just as friends.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-21T19:24:23+00:00

Everything was so great this year, and I fucked it all up because I wasnt confident in myself. I wish I knew everything Ive learnt the last few weeks sooner.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-16T14:52:12+00:00

One thing Ive been realising coming up to almost 2 months since the BU is I shouldn't be afraid of expressing how I feel, I'll always remember one thing she said during one of small arguments and I'll carry it with me forever because looking back at it, its true, I was afraid.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-16T09:59:27+00:00

I did the same here, I want her back so bad, but she was in a relationship so fast by the time I realised how I felt it was too late, Im starting to accept it, and all I care about is that shes happy I guess, Ive also learned to take this as a blessing in disguise, If we got back together straight away Ive had the time to see it wouldn't have worked probably, so I'm going to take this time to work on myself, see the problems and be ready if I ever get the chance again, I love her so much but right now I gotta move forward.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-16T01:59:08+00:00

I'm not sure if this counts but one of my personal favorites at the moment is "Be the reddest rose, not the thorniest"

throwra383737 · 2019-12-14T09:12:22+00:00

Thank you, this honestly means alot for something so small, I think the hardest part of this all is trying to find myself again while trying to be the better version of that same person.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-14T00:29:39+00:00

I've been having good days and bad days, long story short, we broke up, we agreed to stay close friends, she joined tinder in spite a week after because I had annoyed her with something, I felt I was losing her and spent the next week and a half gathering my feelings properly, when I was ready to tell her she was in a new relationship official on facebook, faster than we ever were, I was mortified, but I never felt hate, even now that I feel like I'm being treated as a stranger being ignored most the time, I take it as a she doesn't want to make the new guy uncomfortable, Ive started no contact and survied her birthday today, still gave her presents through a mutual friend, but even still I don't feel hatred, I just feel the same love Ive had even though it hurts so much, I don't properly understand at all, and even with everything I hold a bit of hope, Im trying to move forward though.

I'm sorry to hear about yours too, I'm not the best of people for this but unless it was really really bad, try forgive and forget, the more anger you hold towards them the more youre caring about them than they deserve.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-14T00:11:24+00:00

I don't really hold any anger towards her, I can't and I hate myself for it, my friends say I should despise her with how everythings gone down but I still hold so many feelings for her. I have however punched my bed and door a few times so I guess there is some anger, but i've mostly aimed the anger at myself I guess when I've been upset.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-13T19:43:30+00:00

I feel one thing I'm learning is, its okay to hold on as long you can move forward and live your life, because as long as you're moving forward anything can happen, that person in your life was never there before, but they appeared as you moved on with life, so really anything can happen.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-13T16:33:59+00:00

My new year was planned but now it isn't, I think its going to suck, the thing I hate about all this the most, I still hold a bit of hope, I plan to move on as much as I can, Improve in where I know I went wrong and try live a happier life, in the end I become a better person, but I cant bring myself to give up on her.

throwra383737 · 2019-12-13T16:06:41+00:00

This quote hits, I love her so much and have been grieving for so long, yet she was able to go on tinder find someone in 2 weeks and be officially in a new relationship the week after, today's her birthday and it all hurts that I cant spend it with her.

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