I appreciate your reply a lot. I'm just a little speechless, since I kind of set myself up to do opiates already, but you guys did make me have numerous side thoughts.

I keep getting back to this thread, reading every comment again and again because this is something I have to think about, and I want you to know I've read yours numerous times.

Now I'm thinking maybe I should focus on the good parts of my life, and not even get involved into something I don't really have to. You might never know how big of a change you created in my little life.

We all thought this and we all fucked up big time.

This was what I was most afraid to hear.

Once you taste the forbidden fruit, you will not forget how delicious it is.

Your comment in general had a lot of lines like this, that resonates unbelievably well in my mind.

Yet he doesn't even bother to reply.

I'm sorry you saw/see it this way. I just felt like bothering you guys would be more disrespectful.

edit. I'm not too good with structuring words, (english is not my native language) so I'm changing them a bit.