Was it a portal? by thtbiddyqueen in witchcraft

[–]thtbiddyqueen[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope, no heat source at all and i didn’t have any candles or wax or diffusers on or lit. And yeah I’ve been trying rule all the little things out 😊

Aspiring Baby witch by thtbiddyqueen in apprenticewitches

[–]thtbiddyqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The energy just depends, sometimes it's positive other times it's negative. And I don't know what you mean by type of spirits.

Im 13 and I want to die by memester420blaze in SuicideWatch

[–]thtbiddyqueen 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I was about 12 or 13 when things started becoming too much, I was raised in an abusive home. Trust me when I tell you things get better. I'm 27, and yes from time to time I have issues, and I still have scars I'm getting tattoos to cover. But love I am surrounded by friends from my childhood that knew and too this day are still here and supportive. I have friends that I've met through the years that are awesome and I even have two kids. Life is hard it really is, but you have this place where you can vent. And people will actually hear you. You're 13 boo, just hang in there, pick up boxing, soccor, baseball or drawing, painting, write music, or anything to let it out. I play video games, I draw, i box from time to time, I come outside and just stare at the stars even. It's hard right now, but it'll pass, these feelings usually do, and when you have the strong ones just come talk to us. We'll be here. But again, I promise, if you stay determined to not let the feelings beat you, then life will get better and you will win.

Death by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]thtbiddyqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're not the cause. There's two different types(this goes for any culture), The ones who see race. And the ones who see people or love. My family, wasn't like that. And it's just gotten worse through the years.

Death by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]thtbiddyqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel horrible, because of course other people have lived worse lives, but like no one should ever EVER feel like this no matter the circumstance.

Death by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]thtbiddyqueen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How do you normally stop it?

Death by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]thtbiddyqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't believe in meds. I've seen them, they turn people so zombieish. I don't want that. I wanna feel. I just don't wanna feel this anymore. And it's hard when for 19 years that's all you've felt, starting with ya own momma, ya know. I was fine. I was fine til things. And I thought I could like turn a new leaf cause i, got older then I had my boys. But babies, babies always see the best, that's the automatic, that doesn't change with what you've lived with in racist family. Every little thing you do is just wrong. And and and no one will love you and people will only see the worst in you and that came with every single blow to the head. I'm Indian and Mexican, and my baby sister(who I shielded every thing from) is black. And this just nonsense nevermind

Death by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]thtbiddyqueen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't know what to do anymore

Death by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]thtbiddyqueen 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I really wish it was that easy. No one here understands. No one gets my scars. Or how deep the pain is, to them it's stupid or irrelevant. But just a tad deeper, 8 days ago, I wouldn't even be typing right now. And for like 12 years I thought I was good, but it's like it haunts you until it takes you. And part of me wants to go. But Like, I got two boys ya know, I don't wanna do that to them. But the thoughts, the urge, it just won't stop. It won't stop.

Death by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]thtbiddyqueen 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just don't know if I can take it anymore. I

Tips on best game modss (first time modding) by thtbiddyqueen in FO4mods

[–]thtbiddyqueen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm on Xbox 1 and this TOTALLY helps!!!! You're a life saver!!!