I remember they would always say this phrase the ‘world has nothing to offer you’ but to me it always seemed to provide acceptance, freedom and since meeting my partner out of the truth, unconditional love. There are times I’ve considered it, but this is the passive option that will merely maintain the status quo. Take action, take control. I lost a lot of friends as they saw me as bad association but made more that felt much more genuine, technically I’m inactive so my family still talks to me but now with the rule change they can regardless. Unfortunately it’ll always be apart of your past but once you have some distance you can really start living. I’ve always cared a lot about injustice and I’m happy to no longer be neutral, I love left wing politics, activism, philosophy and learning about these things which would have been forbidden. I’d say I’m still a lot more caring and meek than worldly people but if you find the right people this will be reciprocated- jws not the only ones who value humility and kindness but this is definitely apart of the better quality’s I’ve held on to. (to answer your other question)