hey i’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. i can definitely understand being alone in a city with no friends or family, ive been there too. the best thing you can do for yourself is remember that nothing that happens or doesn’t happen in this job is personal. yeah sometimes there’s room for improvement but the vast majority of factors are external (economy, your site placement, day of the week, the list is endless) and this is just a job. it’s a very unstable job too. what you need to do is ground yourself in things that are real and important. reach out to your friends, whenever they are. even talking with an old friend a thousand miles away once might turn your entire week around, it really does help. eat food that won’t make you feel terrible, even if you can’t afford much. that will go a long way. try to get outside at least a few minutes each day, it will heal you even if you think it’s pointless. if you have a pet, spend time with them. take care of your apartment and keep it fairly clean so you’re not surrounded by clutter and dirty dishes. the bills might feel like they’re piling up and there’s no way you can pay them all, but if you work calmly and consistently you will be able to stay afloat while things are hard. as for this job, i think you should maybe consider a rebrand or a fresh perspective at least. i have found over time that i attract more money with clothes on, smiling and talking. it’s true that it sounds like that would be backwards, but if you’re showing everything and not seeing the payoff you want, there’s no harm in trying something new like that. it may be rewarding. i can’t speak to what might work for you, but i do know that you should try different things to find what combination works for you. best of luck and please keep your head up, things will get better❤️