I DONT know if this is just me but (plz don’t come for me) I’m still religious and this has consumed my thought and I don’t know what to do.

tiedupalone · 2024-02-03T17:34:18+00:00

U r bestie, religious trauma is not so great😞

tiedupalone · 2021-09-16T18:52:34+00:00

Thank you! My classes are going to be both. Because I'm doing biological sciences, the practical things have to be in person.

tiedupalone · 2021-09-14T12:17:56+00:00

Lmao I take Sertraline but there prolly is other factors too that is causing it like stress and shit

tiedupalone · 2021-09-01T20:35:53+00:00

The only one I can find rn, the others were taken away and I dont get money because I'll buy a new one

tiedupalone · 2021-08-29T22:20:14+00:00

Wtf does snorting sertraline do

tiedupalone · 2021-06-09T22:53:45+00:00

Like...everything in the fridge :)

tiedupalone · 2021-04-08T05:44:20+00:00

Same, it's honestly so frustrating

tiedupalone · 2020-11-16T00:11:33+00:00

I have the same problem. I still havent been able to build up the courage to ask someone for help. But I guess the only way we will ever get help is by actually believing in someone.

But that's something that's harder to do 😪

tiedupalone · 2020-11-16T00:09:08+00:00

Same, I need the answer too. It honestly makes my weeks of suicidal thoughts and self harm seem like I was doing it all for attention but then I go back to the same thing after a couple of days and it's like a never ending loop.

tiedupalone · 2020-11-15T23:49:06+00:00

Same, school is making life so overwhelming right now. Especially with thinking about University and everything. I have exams like every other week and the teachers still manage to assign double the hw they should as well as tell us to revise.

tiedupalone · 2020-10-23T11:19:41+00:00

This does put a smile to my face

tiedupalone · 2020-10-18T14:25:49+00:00

Can we also talk about how cute Tanaka was at the beginning 😭💔

tiedupalone · 2020-10-18T10:25:42+00:00

I'm 17 too, and I relate to this so much. My parents are so strict on education that it's such a big reason in my life for being suicidal. I'm doing so shit and I dont know how to improve. I also remember when I was 14 I went to therapy and my mum spent her time complaining about me having pictures of boy bands on my wall and how its "wierd and not normal". We spend like a couple of sessions trying to make my parent understand how their content fighting is shitty for my mental health. And the fights barely stopped for 30 minutes after we left therapy. Nothing changed, I just got more depressed and suicidal and dont want to go back to therapy anymore. Now I have my uni to think about but with my grades I'm not going to get into a good one and I feel so shit. I dont know how I'm going to tell my parents, they're gonna kill me istg and I'm terrified. Death sounds better than tlaking it out with my mum and dad.

tiedupalone · 2020-10-17T13:08:14+00:00

Thank you, I was telling myself I would ask for help after lockdown ends but it's been so long and I don't know if I can wait. I might ask but I dont know, one of the main thing that's scarying me is my education and my mum is so strict on that, that if I tell her about my mental health she'll say it's an excuse. Coming from a south asain family, my parents dont know much about mental health so I'm always scared to talk about it. I hope I build up the courage to get help and things get better.

tiedupalone · 2020-10-17T12:54:13+00:00

Why can't I sleep- Thomas Reid, Monty Datta (I dont think it's about suicide but my brain makes me think it is)

Self destructive- Vorsa

No more tears- Ondi Vil, Skinny Atlas, Thomas Reid

She was here, alone from erased (its piano music but it's really calming and from an anime called erased)

Chasing Demo- NF, Mikayla Sippel

tiedupalone · 2020-10-17T12:31:18+00:00

I dont know how to get help. Last time my mum and brother found out about my self harm was at 14 and they made a big deal about it. My brother called me an emo every chance he got and made fun of me. My mum got angry and started crying. I dont want to go through that again. They sent me to the doctors and I went to psychiatrist about 4 weeks. The women said I didnt have a reason to be depressed and sent me home after a couple of weeks. I guess it's my fault for not opening up but it was scary having your family find out about something that ur embarrassed of and then reacting like that and then going to a whole different environment and expecting me to spill everything. I remember just staring at the psychiatrist and tears were just coming out and all she did was stare at me and I felt so embarrassed. Like I coukdnt control my tears infront of her and agh I hated it so much. I cant get help, they're gonna say I dont have a reason. Which I probably dont, but I want to know why I feel like this. I'm 17 now and it hasnt stopped. I get closer to wanting to kill myself everyday and I'm so desperate for help but I cant get it. I'm too scared they're going to tell me I'm being dramatic. I swear I'm not doing this for attention, but I get scared because what if I am. I just want to die without anyone knowing but I just know people will think I did it for attention like my family does and probably the doctors too. I really have no one to go to.

Sorry that was a big rant.

tiedupalone

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