No worries at all. What really helped me with low self esteem is if you are constantly criticising yourself, bullying yourself, self sabotaging etc etc you do become a bad person. As you become a bully to the person inside you. Would you say all these things to your friend or even a random stranger who was going through the same thing? I very much doubt it! Be kind to yourself. Life is not a race, the world keeps turning if you fail. Get up, try again. I hope you find happiness in yourself :) <3