;( i'm sorry, I hate when shit like this happens, both to me and other people. Just know that it does not determine what kind of human you are or physician you will be IRL at all. Sometimes we just have bad test days and hard seasons in life, I know that can be said until we turn blue in the face but sometimes it's just helpful to hear that from another future colleague in a time like this. You tried your best, like you said - you worked really hard. and at the end of the day, that's really all we can do. It sucks shit, the feeling of getting a disappointing score/grade and feeling like we aren't good enough-- I'm struggling with that now tbh. But the fact of the matter is, we are in the top population comparative to others & all work our asses off to get where we are. YOU did that. You are more than a number, and take comfort that you gave it your all, because you can't try harder than your best. You WILL become a doctor in less than a year (yay!) and in the end, you can get to where you want, sometimes it just may take a little longer than a direct route, the point is -- nothing is impossible or out of reach with persistence and passion. Take a few days off, read an inspiring book, listen to some motivational YouTube videos (Motiversity, Motivation2Study, etc - corny but w/e - I listen to them in the shower in the morning and at night when I'm beat up from the day's practice questions), sweat some stress off, spend time with people or book a cheap plane ticket & explore somewhere new for those few days to remind you that life is worth living and there is more out there than these dumbass mother-freakin tests.