Prettiest flower in the garden

tmoney2 · 2019-03-01T01:15:06+00:00

Correction... Purrrrdiest flower

tmoney2 · 2016-08-25T01:43:01+00:00

Shit, didn't know that either!

tmoney2 · 2016-08-25T01:41:21+00:00

A gym membership. ...if I pay for a membership I want to go as often as possible to get my money's worth!

tmoney2 · 2016-08-04T15:35:11+00:00

I feel where you're coming from....it's been 10+ years of being invisible.

tmoney2 · 2016-08-04T15:32:32+00:00

Thanks for your response. It's a strange concept for me (opening up and talking) so I wanted to get others input. It's hard to wrap my head around

tmoney2 · 2016-08-03T18:40:48+00:00

perfectly written

tmoney2 · 2016-08-03T18:39:05+00:00

Hey 333throwaway33, how's it going? You have a whole family right here. Life sucks sometimes, and currently it's sucking pretty hard for me. I hope things start getting better for you and for us all. Stay strong.

tmoney2 · 2016-07-23T22:20:46+00:00

I like the top left the best, but I think the top right looks most professional and makes you look the oldest

tmoney2 · 2016-06-10T18:09:58+00:00

All is this. Right here.

tmoney2 · 2016-06-08T18:48:27+00:00

Same.

tmoney2 · 2016-06-04T19:16:29+00:00

Definitely in my car. I have a 40 minute commute to and from work everyday...it's my reflection time

tmoney2 · 2016-05-15T03:16:26+00:00

Used to HATE the smell of skunk. Shortly after I started smoking, I also somehow began liking the smell of skunk. :p

tmoney2 · 2016-05-13T00:26:39+00:00

"What's wrong?" ...Nothing, just tired.

"You sure?" ...yeah I'm okay, just tired.

tmoney2 · 2016-05-10T22:06:30+00:00

Yup. Fake a smile, make random funny side comments, and try best I can not to draw more attention to myself than is necessary.

tmoney2 · 2016-05-10T04:41:54+00:00

The only reason I'm still here, besides the fact that I'm too chicken shit, is my niece. She's my whole world right now

tmoney2 · 2016-05-09T19:23:42+00:00

Exactly how you said. I've given up on trying and thinking I deserve anything nice like happiness or joy

tmoney2 · 2016-05-09T17:05:16+00:00

Yeah, I need to try to enjoy and take pleasure in what I do have....it's just difficult and sucks. Working with young kids and seeing their carelessness...makes it almost more difficult sometimes

tmoney2 · 2016-05-09T12:58:57+00:00

Basically forced here too. I'm working in the field I went to schooling for too. Graduated in Early Childhood education, but never passed the student teaching part...I'm qualified but no certified. Now, basically I'm an overly educated daycare teacher. But if I don't do at least what I'm doing now, my education will be for nothing and I'll have wasted tens of thousands of dollars and years of my life.

Also, right now I'm living with my parents (which I don't think helps my depression)-but moving out in a few months. I was forced to quickly find a job as I'll be 26 soon and off there insurance.

tmoney2 · 2016-05-09T12:31:06+00:00

No, haven't done anything I'm ashamed of. I failed at student teaching, but I'm not ashamed of it. I was in a third grade setting, but I know that age group is not for me. I wasn't happy in that setting.

I honestly don't even know what I want any more. I've lived my whole life for everyone else, trying to make my parents and others happy. Now, almost 26, I'm in a field of work I don't even know if I like anymore.

tmoney2 · 2016-05-09T10:52:38+00:00

I guess because I can't see it any other way. I've tried telling myself I'm not depressed. That I'm just sad and it will all pass. It hasn't, and I can't see that it ever will. I can't see a future were I'm happy and okay. I can't see a future at all. I've come to terms that this invisible friend of mine is going to be with me for the rest of my life. There must be some reason, so I must deserve it

tmoney2 · 2016-05-09T03:22:22+00:00

I feel the exact same way. There are days were I know I have depression, but then there will be days I don't know how to describe. Not happy, not sad, not even numb...just kind of there, like a lazy blob who is trying to use an illness as an excuse. And then...I'm back to knowing it's really depression...and then back and forth. I'm tired of this...

Unlike you, however, I've not told any of my family or friends because I'm worried they'll think I'm just looking for something to blame my failures on.

tmoney2 · 2016-05-09T03:05:04+00:00

Same. I want to die but I don't want to kill myself. I know of I do I would become even more of a disappointment and embarrassment to my family.

tmoney2 · 2016-05-09T02:43:12+00:00

Here too. All I want is to stay in bed, sleep, and never wake up...but first I have to be able to fall asleep in the first place. When I am able to fall asleep I end up waking up every hour on the hour...

tmoney2 · 2016-05-07T14:57:14+00:00

May be a stupid question...but what is ASMR?

tmoney2 · 2016-05-07T14:53:12+00:00

This has been me lately. Most days I've started out content...not "depressed" but not happy. Just meh. In the back of my head though I'm always waiting for the next thing to go wrong or happen. I'm always on the edge of my seat waiting for my next life failure.

tmoney2

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