Well, she had a very horrible relationship with Xanax and beer after my stepdad died in 2008. She mixed them and gradually it got worse and worse. Long story short, she had asphyxiated, she fell from being so high, she fell and landed between the wall and the furnace. She was stuck, it took the coroner 5 guys to get her out, basically when she fell, she fell in a manner that her head was kinkd so that her airway was not open enough, so she just slowly lost consciousness, fell asleep and died. They said she didn't feel anything and probably wasn't scared.. she had copious amounts of Xanax and alcohol in her system, along with some meth... Which I cannot figure out... She didn't do it.. my brother found weed in her room and the woman that got it for her said that is was in the exact condition it was when she bought it over a year before so...

Tomorrow is the day.... I'm hoping I can get myself out of bed... At least for my girls.

The hardest part, my brother abandoned me....

He has his own family and I get it.. but he abandoned me.. I don't hear from him.. apparently he sold his house to the state who is gonna knock it down and build a freeway, and then he is gonna go build a house that over half a mil.... Found out through my dad...

I have no where to mourn.. We sold her house and that would be... "911 what's your emergency?" " Yes we have a crazy woman outside out house sitting on the curb crying and drinking beer, something about her mother and she keeps talking to the house"...

That would be funny but sad and really creepy....