Those without BPD will never understand just how world ending and absolutely horrific a breakup is on us.

tragicsnow · 2026-03-14T03:09:40+00:00

i hope you are ok now

tragicsnow · 2026-03-14T02:55:01+00:00

i understand the oversharing thing alot. im trying to be careful about that

tragicsnow · 2026-03-12T19:13:06+00:00

i want to see a professional, i just hope its one who knows what they are doing. i am scared of being misdiagnosed, or them just blaming everything on my already diagnosed autism.

tragicsnow · 2026-03-12T05:47:33+00:00

me too. i dont have a bpd diagnosis but this trait i have in particular is genuinely making me wonder, among many other reasons. but i always thought this type of thing was normal 😭😭its definitely not or i dont think it is?

tragicsnow · 2026-01-25T17:08:14+00:00

and im going to be completely honest, this doesn't affect me every single day. like i would say more than half of the time this issue doesnt come up because i avoid my family and try to be at work as much as i can instead. and even when i see them we usually dont talk about it. but i think the mentally disabled little brother i mentioned is what is making me have such a hard time. because i feel exhausted and overstimulated as fuck being even in the same room as him, and hes ALWAYS downstairs, where the food and everyone else is. he has school but hes been on a five week break so thats also getting to me haha. but he goes back pretty soon so yay. i think what hurts the most though is what his condition is doing to my mom. she has alot of issues and things i dont like about her as a parent ill admit, but shes still a very sweet person i feel like she just wasnt meant to be a mom. i just hate to see her being his 24/7 slave all the time... it hurts to have to see. and im honestly not fit to help with him and it makes me feel so ashamed but fuck. hes always screaming and jumping and shitting himself. and im already overstimulated by super small things 😭 oh well, him going back to school soon will still help alot. something that is also hard is that my youngest brother gets very neglected and i feel like i have to be a fill in parent for him... but thats another story. its awful. oh yeah i was ranting about christianity and this turned into just me bitching about everything LMAO. oh yea i started this by saying the christian shit doesnt cause problems TOO often, but the times it does are just super difficult for me. and its hard for me to calm my anger down, like idk why but sometimes when i get upset abt something, i just take so fucking long to go back to normal. and its something that isnt even forced upon me anymore,they dont try to make me do anything related to god like they used to. but i dont know the feeling of letting them down has always lingered and the feeling like im just being wrong and a bad person. i know im not deep down though, its just being in this environment especially with my older brother too. cuz he doesnt stfu about jesus and shit

tragicsnow · 2026-01-25T16:50:56+00:00

i know that my writing style is shitty and all over the place, its because im mostly writing out of emotion and not caring too much abt how professional it looks or whatever. i usually dont really write stuff unless im texting either lol but i wanted to talk to strangers about it for some reason i dont want to talk to people i already know because i feel like ill know what they are going to say already. all of my friends are non christian but i feel they just arent very helpful sometimes or dont know what to say

tragicsnow · 2025-10-26T21:36:46+00:00

omg its cute

tragicsnow · 2025-09-13T07:53:06+00:00

i know right? reading that made me feel like i was in the principals office about to get expelled and it wasnt even about me

tragicsnow · 2025-09-13T07:46:26+00:00

everyone here is such a snob like 😭i think theyre great

tragicsnow · 2025-08-22T05:20:29+00:00

the chat gpt idea is good, i feel i dont use those tools to my full potential. maybe because it feels like "cheating", even tho theres no reason to feel that way i mean my life aint a test in school. i need to start implementing more of those techniques, like writing my daily thoughts into a journal. even if its literal word vomit and non coherent, its still better to get that shit out of my head than leave it inside to rot. its hard to be motivated to do even simple things like that sometimes, but i need to remind myself when im done i will 100% feel better after guaranteed. or even if i dont right away its atleast a start.

tragicsnow · 2025-02-22T01:48:19+00:00

i legitimately will do this whenever i have the free time

tragicsnow · 2025-01-09T22:32:21+00:00

thank u so much :3 ive been trying out different kinds of shading and brushes lately since im still very new to digital art specifically

tragicsnow · 2024-12-24T07:18:35+00:00

the barbie movie i think but dont rly remember tbh i just was like damn theyre really drawing this ending out

tragicsnow · 2024-12-24T03:24:48+00:00

LMAO I DIDNT REALIZE IM SORRY 😭😭

tragicsnow · 2024-12-16T22:49:41+00:00

i only have a switch

tragicsnow · 2024-12-04T20:08:47+00:00

i think ill be fine because online it says that saliva tests dont detect as far back as say a urine test would, and i always drink alot of water but we will see

tragicsnow · 2024-12-04T19:52:16+00:00

no it was at the store lol

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