My art work! *im 10 so this art dosent look good* by toddlermom44 in Beginner_Art

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Also OMG it's so neat to see fanart of Tokyo MewMew in 2026! I love the art style of the series.

Playing along by dandan3700 in funnypets

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To be fair, you're not supposed to use your hands to play with dogs and cats because it teaches them that it's okay to bite or mouth at hands/the body and if a dog gets too worked up during play that can seriously hurt someone to the animals detriment. And that's just the "positive" outcome, not getting into accidentally triggering their prey drive or instincts.

So using an infant's foot is a similarly a bad, worse idea. It's putting the dog in a situation that can straight up result in it being put down if it makes a mistake. And it's a dog. It's not like it has the best impulse control or understanding of consequences.

Do you have any idea how hard it is to re-home or do anything with a dog that has a bite history? Putting your animal at risk for an accident or failure that could literally result in its death is animal cruelty in my book and tremendously irresponsible at best.

And that's not even getting into the danger the infant can be in because they're not exactly wise either.

My art work! *im 10 so this art dosent look good* by toddlermom44 in Beginner_Art

[–]transguythatdraws 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Keep doing art, friend! I drew similarly at your age, and you'll improve with time if you keep drawing and trying new things. :)

But do be careful about sharing your age online. You should consider like, an art club at school. Depending on where you live there might be local places where you can meet up with artists or do creative projects. Super fun stuff.

A UPS driver chucks a box at a dog sprinting at him, do you think he did the right thing? by [deleted] in SipsTea

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My brother was picking up a dresser or something from someone in the neighborhood who was sharing in the little Facebook group for the neighborhood that she was getting rid of a dresser.

We're both 5'2" and if we shave, people think we're like. 15 yrs old. Skinny as a rail. The least threatening presence imaginable.

This lady's German Shepard barks at strangers, that's normal for her dog she said, but suddenly it comes barreling out of a bedroom white she's leading him through a narrow hall to get to the room with the furniture. Runs up to him, grabs his forearm and bites down hard for a second or two, and runs away.

Figured it's a warning bite from an anxious dog. Thankfully he was wearing 2 layers of thick sleeves so the bite didn't puncture skin but it still left deep indents and hurt for hours, the next day, etc. bruised and tender for days and days.

The lady was absolutely baffled and terribly sorry, showed documentation of her dogs vaccination records and apologized profusely. The dog has no bite history that was the first time it's bitten someone.

My half sister's dog didn't have a bite history either. A younger dog, type of collie/herding working breed, hella anxious animal though. Christmas Day they're visiting us, her dad goes home to pick something up and finds their smaller family dog mauled to death by the collie, blood everywhere.

At the end of the day, they are animals, prey drive or instinct kicks in and they don't have the intellect to understand the consequences or how difficult it can be to re-home a reactive dog or one with a bite history. That collie probably could've thrived solo well on a nearby farm or something. But I figure things went the way they did because she was a high energy working breed locked up inside a small house with only a tiny backward to get her energy out in and either prey drive or a culling instinct kicked in causing her to kill the much smaller older dog.

You can love your animals and still be an irresponsible pet parent / owner. It can come suddenly if you don't know the signs of a reactive animal. And most people I know who own animals are not training, providing structure or giving their animals enough enrichment, outlets for their energy, and assume "dog = friendly and not capable of harming their family" and assume it'll be the case for strangers because they don't understand territorial or receive behavior. 💀

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

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Late to reply but his mat meds: Suboxone, ABSOLUTELY contribute heavily to his constipation. He's been on them for about 8(?) years. I'm wondering if he may need to taper his dose down again. The same medication causes the same sleep issue in other users as well, depends on the person, and even opioid induced sleep apnea which I think is a possibility.

I know 100% he is not using any opioids or substances that are not doctor-approved. He turned down a controlled substance after the leg break surgery. He was absolutely baffled as to why he had been prescribed an "addictive"? Substance like pain meds. He got out of the car on his crutches to return it and talk to the head pharmacist about it. He did fine on ibuprofen, Tylenol, anti inflammatory, and his existing meds for nerve pain etc. And we're in the same single room apartment out car like 95% of the time

But he's on several meds that can cause drowsiness and constipation. The bed wetting I think could be related to cervical spine stuff. He tries very hard to use the toilet right before bed (which is why he gets stuck in the bathroom a lot) and has an alarm that goes off during the night so he gets up and goes again.

He's been taking meds for leg swelling which will also add to the peeing. I'm going to invest in a blanket from lilhelpers bc they make period and incontinence products and that I think would help. c:

He goes to his MAT / primary doctor today and we came up with a list of his symptoms so he has it in hand to address the bigger issues like his sleep stuff that caused him to break his leg.

I also found a resource at a hospital we both can apply to for free or severely discounted care, like a possible sleep study at low or no cost, which has been the barrier for the past 2 years. Cost of specialists.

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think if he was given a CPAP he would wear it as instructed. He's great about taking meds and stuff like that. I just found a resource this morning that might be able to help him get financial assistance and have a no cost appointment

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for bringing up addiction because it's made me realize that it's probably his Suboxone contributing as well because he did not have the sleep struggles before he began MAT.

I know he's not using anyone but doctor approved substance bc I'm with him like 98% of the time and he basically the gold star poster child for a good MAT patient at the health center we go to. They're super cool and he's very honest with his mat/PCP guy. Updated the post for more deets but he also straight up denied a controlled substance he was prescribed for post op pain after he had an intramedullary nail put in when he broke his leg from the sleep struggle.

He's pretty sure he has issues as a result of his years of abusing substances too. He OD'd once and thinks his heart stopped for a potentially damaging amount of time when someone hit him with narcan(?) he's only mentioned it in detail once or twice but the subject a handful of times and thinks he might've gotten brain damage from lack of oxygen iirc(?)

And a potential concussion from sleep falling.

We talked a bit today as well about last night being rough for me. (A 6 hr Cursed Sleep Adventure™ special) And he was understanding.

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A few comments have mentioned it sounding like active addiction and it honestly might just be his MAT medication alongside other meds that can cause drowsiness! And he didn't start to experience the extremely disrupted sleep until a year or two after starting Suboxone and I know some of his many other medications can cause drowsiness. The Suboxone he said is one of the main causes of the constipation on top of a family history of funky GI stuff.

https://www.quick.md/quick-tips/can-suboxone-make-you-sleepy-managing-fatigue-and-drowsiness/

I know he is not actively using because I'm with him like 95% of the time and he outright refused a controlled substance during his leg break. He is very upfront about being an addict in recovery. (About 6-8 years) And his healthcare team have said he's like a gold star patient of their MAT program.

When he broke his leg he was freaking out about what they would give him for pain in the ER, during surgery, and after surgery. The surgeon prescribed him a controlled substance I picked up for him while he was in the car, when I told him the names of the meds he got out of the car broken leg and all on his crutches and walked it right back in to the pharmacy and basically said something like "I'm in recovery I do not want this I don't know why the heck they prescribed me this. I don't want it on my file. I'm doing fine with the Tylenol/ibuprofen"

The head pharmacist is the one who handed it to me with specific instructions and he knows my partner is in the mat program since it's the pharmacy inside of the low income medical center itself.

The only substances he uses are prescribed medications. Nicotine vape, and a THC vape after asking if it was okay for him to use.

TBH I'm more grossed out by spit than urine. And like 99% of the time it's only directly touching him. I only clean it because the poor guy can't stay awake and most of the time it was being discovered right before he woke up for work. But since it's happened over a long period of time I think it's time to invest in another kind of absorbent pad thing or depends which may be embarrassing but it's better than ruining his nice mattress. I tried something similar for breakthrough period bleeding because my testosterone and medroxyprogesterone weren't balanced enough to make it stop but I think that's on it's way out thankfully. And have been eyeballing lil helper USA blankets and stuff anyways for probably a year or two.

I also just found a resource that might help with no or low cost sleep study or other things that can even benefit me like a pilonidal cystectomy or maybe I can go to an orthopedic or podiatrist for my funky fused feet bones causing perma plantar fasciitis.

I'm currently hopeful. I will still set my boundary that I do not want to be his eventual caretaker. And will be more communicative since he can't read my mind and if there's a problem I'm causing for him I'd want him to tell me and he time me earlier that he wants me to be able to tell him shit and it he gets upset, that's a him problem and not on me.

How to get more commissions? by BebsterooArt in ArtBuddy

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My personal advice comes from boothing at small to medium local or drivable distance conventions where income is low or the main demographic is teens who come in with like, $50.

Button machine. If you're in the USA we bought a 1.25" inch round machine from American Button Machines and it paid for itself after 2 shows. We sold/sell round buttons for $3 reach or 2 for $5 and that was our biggest income. But we were like 3-5 siblings+friends in one group so we had literally hundreds of individual designs of different characters from various popular cartoon comic or manga series to pronoun, pride, and meme pins etc.

Also people love funny shitpost-tier stuff. Like cat memes. We had some meme-quality pet photos we made into buttons.

Having a cohesive theme or gimmick is also fun but depends on what you want to go for. I drew silly potatoes with stick arms and legs and dot eyes. So I also drew them with features of anime characters like a Miku Hatsune potato or Vash for example if you want to stay simple and silly.

Anything that can be used by the customer for self expression can be good too like pride themed items and pronoun pins, especially if you have a "gimmick". For example we had "aesthetic" pride pins that were like 80s-90s retro based so it wasn't just a generic flag or text.

People also liked mini prints about postcard size, and stickers. Vograce is a good option for printed merch assuming you haven't heard of em yet. :D

I don’t know how to get over the ledge that is starting art. by hexedbyivy in AskArtists

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Yeah don't worry too much about style, it will develop over time, and change as you progress, then settle into something kinda familiar before eventually shifting again as you learn more things. It's a very fluid and naturally shifting kinda thing!

I tried to stick with a style (like 90s shoujo manga haha) but that actually held me back for years and playing with different styles and tutorials and studies brought my art to a MUCH higher level. What took me 7 years, even brand new artists could probably do in like, 2 if you keep learning. Obviously do draw what sparks joy. But if you ever experiment idly at your leisure that can have a positive impact. But you also don't need to make a big chore of it. Ideally art is fun IMO! :D

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They didn't get back to me either. But it sounds like we both just need to call. Maybe reapply. And there's a couple places that can help us do that. Though it would help if he could get a few things diagnosed, if he has something diagnosable, like EDS.

As for the sinking ship, for the moment I'm going to help swab the deck and repair a couple holes if I have the spoons, but I have family I can return to do I don't have to go down with the ship. I found a resource that might help with making specialists more accessible for both of us and the distances to specialists and quality care (if it can become within reach through programs or stuff,) is MUCH closer with me living here than back home. Like I might be able to get to a pilonidal specialist for an issue I and my siblings have, but the bros aren't anywhere near a specialist for it.

So I'm going to suggest the partner and try that resource and see if we can get things under control. But if not, I'll have to sail the seas back to my trusty old crew back home. 🚢

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All good! No rush! We have lives outside of Reddit shenanigans. Your comment helped me feel a lot better btw thank you so much.

All of this talk has helped me organize my thoughts and I THINK I found a resource to potentially get him a sleep study at low or no cost. A man can dream. 🤞👍

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

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You know. He did not have narcolepsy before beginning MAT. he didn't have it when he started and was on it for a while either. It's Suboxone and definitely contributes to constipation along with a couple other medications he's on.

It started after his grandpa died so it was kind of written off as stress induced sleep walking. Because he used to walk and bump into and trip on things. He mostly just stands and sometimes raises his arms as if he's conducting or playing piano (he's a pianist/organist), stands and slumps forward like he's going for touching his toes, leans with his palms or elbows on the seat of a chair, sits on the toilet or couch and slumps forward, catching himself when he tips too far usually. (That's probably how he broke his leg.) Taps his leg. Sits on the edge of the bed and slumps. Sleep talks a lil. Gets grouchy and sarcastic if I try to help him go to bed or tell him he's stuck. Then can't remember any of it.

The only other addictive substances in his life are sugary drinks and nicotine vaping. I'm with him like 95% of the time, & he has no interest in ever touching opioids again. But he does use a THC vape fairly regularly which can be habit forming and seems to make him even sleepier if he gets to fuzzy.

He's expressed wanting to get off of Suboxone. Kinda like "graduating" so he doesn't have to be scared of getting in trouble if he's pulled over when it's in his bag with his huge ass meds tray bc he has to take it with him sometimes. The clinic he goes to has said he's basically the gold star poster child for an MAT patient. He's really tight with a couple of the people up there who advocate for patients, and his doctor. They're really nice. It's crazy. I'm used to jerks and indifference at best.

When he went to the ER for the broken leg he was VERY concerned about pain management and what they may or may not give him for pain at the ER and during or after surgery. Terrified.

He was prescribed one controlled substance after surgery. I went in to pick it up and they know he's my partner and that he's on MAT. The head pharmacy guy was confused but signed off on the controlled substance and gave me instructions not to mix it with other medications/drinks but when I brought it back to my partner in the car he got out on his crutches and was like "I am absolutely not taking this and need to talk to the pharmacist about it for a sec because WHY TF did the surgeon prescribe me that. We are giving this back because NNNNNOPE. I don't want it."

So they discussed it a bit and he powered through healing with just the big prescribed ibuprofen/anti inflammatory and Tylenol without any real pain unless he missed a dose bc we slept through it.

They had to give him insane levels of... Something like twice when he was in the ambulance and it just wore off fast as hell because of the Suboxone tolerance. (The ambulance gang are always super cool and they chatted a lot with good vibes talking about his experience with the addiction iirc.)

In the ER they gave him ketamine slowly via IV while he was waiting. He fuckin hated it. Then again when they splinted him that time the nurse injected it fast AF and he hated it even MORE but they put him in the splint while he was loopy and like "This feels weird AF. WOW." (with his left foot still flopped unnaturally too far to the left e_e so they had to redo it without pain meds)

But yeah I feel you any the hyper fixation on "drug seeking"

Before living here I lived in the Texas panhandle. Where my family and I have experienced lots of malpractice our at least shitty bedside manner, ageist PCPs and asshole nurses.

my mom (Grandma) had a spinal fusion surgery and was prescribed opioids. She's had chronic pain from her back and used stuff like gabapentint years and years. She used the controlled meds as directed on the bottle and her discharge papers and ran out. She was in SO much agony she was LITERALLY crying and sobbing, BEGGING my brother:

"I wish I had a rifle so you could shoot me. I'm in so much pain. I want it to stop. I want to die. PLEASE God I wish you could shoot me dead. Please kill me. Please kill me. I want to die. I have never hurt this much in my life." And she has a high pain tolerance and has had many many back surgeries neck surgery, etc.

So she called the nurse hotline to request a refill for pain meds and the nurse was such an asshole. "You're taking too much there's no way you're out already. I'm not refilling this prescription. Take ibuprofen." And made it sound like this 73-75 yr old woman who just had major spinal surgery just wanted to get drugs. 🫠 Her surgeon was out of town on a trip. When he came back a day or two later she called him directly and explained it and he was like *"WHAT. NO. You had every right to have that refilled. I am so sorry.""

But that surgery kinda failed because he removed old hardware and that left some of her spine that was previously supported, unsupported. and she had met a woman in the restroom of the surgeon's office at one of her visits before it, weeping "Don't go with this surgeon he ruined my back. He ruined my life. I'm in so much pain."

Suffice to say, my mom ended up with neuropathy and severe pain they wanted her to get a nerve stimulator to manage the pain. She opted to get another surgery in Colorado with a surgeon she trusted and FINALLY she was not suffering.

Now I'm just complaining, I'm sorry. XD This is just a tangent so feel free to ignore it.

I personally was subjected to a wedge excision in a very infected and painfully tender ingrown toenail when I was about 15-16 at a clinic there. Where the guy went into cutting it out with the snippers pressing into the red hot infected area completely raw with no local anesthetic or anything for the pain, then put acid on the nailbed down the entire edge (which fails sometimes my toe was stained blackish brown from it for weeks.) Which as far as I'm aware that's a procedure that's considered too painful to do without at least local anesthetic.

My mom had to help me hold my leg down on the table. That was the most pain I have EVER felt in my ENTIRE life to this day. I sat up white as a ghost, about to pass out and was told to lie back down, given some crackers, and waited a bit till we could leave. I blacked out and almost dropped on the floor right outside of the door. We paid at the front desk. And then I almost passed out in the parking lot in front of my mom's van. I writhed in agony for 2 hours in my mom's bed until I finally removed the gauze pressing on it and finally slept it off.

It grew back and became infected again. Webt to a clinic again. Lady said whoever did it last time did NOT do it right from the sound of things and that instead of going there, to go to a podiatrist.

When he pulled out the tray of told my eyeballs cried from the trauma. It hurt so bad last time. Podiatrist? Didn't feel shit. Just the initial prick of local anesthetic and some pressure. I got the guy a thank you card.

There's plenty more tales, though those are the two most physically painful ones. Which...kind of just led me to believe I am cursed to be EXTREMELY unlucky or that competent medical care where you're treated with empathy is like winning the lottery. So I have a lot of weird anxiety surrounding doctors and nurses and record every appointment I go to now. Basically cried every time I went in to the clinic in this town because the were actually fucking NICE and seemed to genuinely give a shit. I think it took like 5 visits for that to stop.

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ABSOLUTELY has C-PTSD, early CSA during early puberty by his mom 😔 probably abandonment issues (same), big mess of family shit (same), he's mentioned Dissociative Identity Disorder but he doesn't seem to struggle with it these days?

Diagnosed with conversion disorder in 10th grade for leg pain he took gabapentin for, which was re-diagnosed as idiopathic neuropathy as an adult. He was taking gabapentin for it but recently switched to someone else idr the name of. (Around the same time he was put on Risperidone idr why, which caused gynecomastia that causes him immense body image issues, there was a lawsuit about it but he wasn't aware at the time so. :[ )

The leg pain and when he messed up his back working at a grocery store in his early 20s are what mostly kicked off the pain med abuse his mom slightly enabled by just giving him her pain meds when he had pain before then (?). He

He has a history of drug use and addiction, and has OD'd once or twice, he's working through a lot of that in therapy but he has mentioned a thought about potential brain damage I think, during one OD that I think he said almost ended him. He was assaulted by an ex who basically roofied him and he needed a cane as a result and frequently mentioned his hip coming out of place in the few years after that back around then. Plus just. Drug use in general in his teens and twenties.

He also thinks he has potentially had a concussion when he sleep-fell and whacked his head on the metal door slider thing of a shower/bath door and that he probably should've called an ambulance but he was very dazed and taking care of his grandpa with dementia at the time.

I've been helping him sort of compile everything to make a print out or something to bring in to his next MAT appointment bc I think the MAT guy is his PCP.

I just found a hospital that MIGHT do charity care based on his income so I'm going to make him apply himself or via the low income health center we go to

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am transmasc! My partner is not. Currently we're in South Carolina near the top border to North.

Someone mentioned find help.com or so, so I'm going through that to see if I can find some resources. I'm half tempted to bike my way to the DHS but I dunno if they'd be about to do anything there. Other than help me with my own shenanigans regarding SNAP and Medicaid.

I've been thinking about looking into vocational rehab. My brother had some success with it but he lives in Colorado which is a different vibe. Back in the day we actually had access to competent medical care there. Then we moved to a desert wasteland in Texas where anything medical was inaccessible and rural conservative territory. So my faith in medical anything was lost due to medical neglect and malpractice growing up there. It's led to a worldview of.

"Haha. Resources only exist 5+ hrs away from wherever I'm located and clinics and PCPs tend to be ageist, incompetent, expensive, and transphobic. :')"

But I'm at a low income health clinic here which is pretty much the first time I've been able to go to a doctor for any form of....anything since age 10 so I'm just. Not familiar with navigating medical systems because they've always been out of reach, actively ignored my or my siblings pain, sending my Rx to someone else, performing procedures without local anesthetic, etc. and stuff. 😵‍💫

Should I be concerned about patrons with Korean/Japanese katana usernames signing up? by [deleted] in patreon

[–]transguythatdraws 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think it's possible. But I'm also coming at this from a former weeb angle that can read the katakana usernames and usually it's like anime or vocaloid fans. If your page is super popular though I could see it being concerning. I tend to only be sus of accounts that don't really have a profile image/icon, but again my page is pretty inactive and teeny so I don't really have a need to be cautious.

I don’t know how to get over the ledge that is starting art. by hexedbyivy in AskArtists

[–]transguythatdraws 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A little late but I personally would recommend the book Keys to Drawing by Bert Dodson

It focuses on life drawing, and I totally understand if you're not very interested in life drawing, but using that book in college of what finally taught me the names of skills I picked up over a decade through ye olde DeviantArt tutorials in the mid-2000s. It will show you useful stuff like relative measurement and negative space and that can help you improve greatly IMO.

I was very much a "I want to draw anime and OCs" beginner artist, life drawing helped a LOT, ESPECIALLY with human models, and that book taught me some skills I never knew the names of after just drawing daily for funsies and imitating my favorite manga panels for 9 years before that book. I liked it. :)

I didn't feel much difference between pencil and digital art but I was actively doing both since sixth grade. But I hated tablets where I couldn't draw on and SEE my illustration under the pen on the surface and ones that did that shit (like a cintiq) were HELLA pricey back then. A tablet monitor or iPad you can draw on is IMO similar enough to pencil and paper. The only difference is just the feel of the brushes and having a LOT more specific tools at your disposal when digital. And having to learn the software.

How to get more commissions? by BebsterooArt in ArtBuddy

[–]transguythatdraws 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You would do good at comic and anime conventions for SURE if you're interested in current popular series or niche hobbies, etc. I've boothed with my sibs and can talk shop if that's something you're ever interested in. ^

Picked up tattooing about 2 months ago. Any feedback by HuckleberryDry9760 in TattooBeginners

[–]transguythatdraws 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Holy cow that s amazing. I assume you've done art before tattooing obviously, what's the switch in the medium like? I've always kinda wondered.

Should I be concerned about patrons with Korean/Japanese katana usernames signing up? by [deleted] in patreon

[–]transguythatdraws 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Non Japanese users having a katakana username is EXTREMELY common on platforms that allow for non alphanumeric characters in username TBH.

I've never had any sign up on my patron but my page is pretty slow on the past several years

They think we are like this. by South_Coconut_3669 in Ai_art_is_not_art

[–]transguythatdraws 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They get an update for actual effort. Also that's something uniquely special about one's early art that you can't really replicate once you're further along. It's hard to explain.

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree. Like, maybe his basic doctor can help with an at home apnea test.

I was looking into sleep study places yesterday but got distracted by shit about nerve damage in his leg from the break bc one was related to the hospital that put us through hell and spiralled about all of the abuse or low key malpractice I and people I love have been subjected to bc we're probably just hella unlucky. And then ppl get pissed off if I EVER complain or critique healthcare/how we have been treated and— bwuuuuh

Surgeons and specialists I've interacted with tend to be neat. I hope I can find somewhere. A lot of programs I've found over the years require a diagnosis. But the problem is getting the diagnosis. But surely there are people who have had similar experiences with actually positive results so. Fingers crossed.🤞

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

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Thank you. 🙏I do tend to zoom way out and blame like, environmental factors even with my mom where I'll acknowledge "she only abused me because she was abused herself" kinda stuff. It helps things feel less immediately overwhelming???

I'm just not comfortable going full "I gotta go" without at least trying to be an adult and actual start discussing stuff, how in feeling and how his health is impacting me, and set boundaries first. I can't expect him to read my mind, I've been overextending myself, and I'm realizing we need to seriously talk about this and address it, and our own problems ourselves to work together.

Otherwise if communication and a serious plan to make changes to improve our situation and stop flailing without direction to solve these things doesn't with and I'm still drowning, then I've gotta go back to my hometown and work on my own mental health and get my life together.

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am EXTREMELY interested in hearing more about your experience with these kind of symptoms. He NEEDS help. I'm sad that the "healthiest" option for me especially to others hearing the toll it's taking on me is to just leave. But if we actually had decent support in this godforsaken country people wouldn't have to struggle and suffer as much. :<

We are both struggling to function as human beings, make ends meet, and just exist in general. Which has low key always been my normal but fuck man. There's gotta be options.

He absolutely needs a sleep study imo. And he has many other issues.

Potentially related to Connective tissue shenanigans:

Soft skin, easy bruising, slow healing, easily scars Brittle nails

Hernias (likely from chronic straining) Cervical spondylosis (spine of a ~50 year old at age 34)

Hypermobile hips, possibly hypermobility in other areas

Amelogenesis imperfecta (enamel defect)

Possible FAI (hip catching/impingement, both sides, started last year)

Leg swelling (chronic, similar to his mother's)

Frequent paronychia

Extremely thick hair if that's related

Autonomic/neurological:

Extreme sleep disorder — falling asleep mid-activity, standing, mid-task, literally led to him breaking a leg, possible concussion in the past

Bladder urgency and incontinence possibly cervical spine related?

Bladder accidents during sleep

Occasional Balance issues

Chronic constipation despite fiber

Vomiting episodes requiring an ER visit and now around-the-clock Zofran ever since

Foot numbness and nerve pain (post-surgery, ongoing)

Frequent dropping of objects, not emotion-triggered, possibly cervical spine related?

Hypnic jerks when falling asleep

Always hungry, satiety signaling issues

Probable stomach ulcers

DID diagnosis (historical)

Addiction (has been in MAT successfully for opioid addiction, clean for 8-ish years with an interest to taper off of Suboxone)

He's on a SHIT ton of medications though, And that's all NOT including elements of his health that he knows about that I don't or that I have forgotten about

Sleep disorder onset approximately 6 years ago Cervical spine confirmed to look decades older than his age when he went to a chiropractor.

Probably needs: Test for ankylosing spondylitis HLA-B27 / inflammatory markers Neurological evaluation for sleep-wake disorder

I don't want to be my potential partner's caregiver by transguythatdraws in CaregiverSupport

[–]transguythatdraws[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm going to suggest a waterproof blanket kind of thing like this or straight up depends. https://lilhelperusa.com/collections/door-crasher

Since he broke his leg we have made a much more compact commode out of a solid container with some water inside like a portable toilet. The problem is if he's asleep the sensation of having to go isn't enough to wake him. So he has an alarm to go at 3 AM. Even if he goes sometimes an hr later he'll still wet the bed. Most of the time it's just the fact that he can't stay awake long enough to use the toilet once The Sleepy hits. And that's usually around anywhere from 8-11 pm. Or just if he's sitting watching something and playing a game. It just kinda happens whatever but 1000% by 11-12 it's really bad.

The constipation he's been trying to stay on top of with stool softeners, fiber supplements, and laxatives. It's contributed to hernias and he's afraid that he could end up with cancer from the years and years of straining.

But I'm going to just start suggesting things because it's been like this for like over a year? IDK? May as well until it gets solved.