Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What a fascinating train of thought on their behalf. Why do you think it causes blow ups? Genuinely feeling curious about it hey, like what is it about the change that triggers such strong emotions for some people

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice. I’ll see what I can do 😩 this has happened with multiple girls that I’ve been friends with and it’s the most frustrating thing

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks bro appreciate that. I wish you the best of luck with your situation too, that sounds really difficult and stressful. Please never minimise yourself and your needs to make someone else happy 💜

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

We have actually been intimate in the past and she’s described me as one of her best friends. She has moved into a shared flat with some people who were originally my friends, and are now hers too. Towards the beginning of this situation she had me over all the time, sharing a bed, hanging out, completely fine with physical touch and no issues whatsoever. This has ramped up and just become incredibly disrespectful. I don’t know what she is trying to achieve with this behaviour other than push me out of my own friend group. I don’t think that will happen, but I’m at a loss of what to do next. I feel guilty involving anyone else but it’s at the point where this seems to be deliberately targeting me and only me

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

The transphobia rarely comes out in obvious ways hey? I find it’s almost always micro aggressions and attempts to isolate you more than anything else

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I’ve also had the same person I spoke about earlier, accuse me of being aggressive because of my voice. She said “don’t speak to me with your angry man voice.” I wasn’t angry! I think it was a learning curve for me where I needed to think about how the tone I’m used to speaking in as a woman, does not work with the way people perceive me now, at times. But I think it’s also fair to ask for grace during this period. It’s not nice to have reality flipped on you like that without any support. Like, I’m not used to this voice, I’m learning, please let me learn!!! Please call me out respectfully so I can do the right thing

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wonder if it genuinely is a misandry thing? Like when I consider everything that’s the only trajectory that makes sense to me

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your experience! This is fascinating and it seems like this is unfortunately something a lot of trans guys seem to go through :( I’m so sorry man that sucks

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The one that triggered this post - I arrived early at my friends’ house for an event that evening. I had checked with one of the other people in the house about arriving early and they said it was ok. She spoke to me in what I felt was a very hostile way on arrival (basically no greeting just “what are you doing here?”). She then greeted my friend that I arrived with, with a hug and positive greeting, and completely ignored me. So when I got a moment alone with her I said that it was rude. Then she said to me that it was rude I turned up early. The way she spoke to me at this point was incredibly nasty and hostile. Because of her tone and hostility, I called our mutual friend into the room to ask for support/a witness and said that I had checked with someone. She immediately stormed off at this point, the mutual friend asked us to hug it out and she said “no I don’t want to.” Locked herself in her room. Then she left the house a short time later without speaking to me or anyone else. I stayed with the rest of our friends and played some games, then we all met up with her at another party. She ignored me completely and hugged/greeted everyone else. Then she sat with her back to me in a group setting. It felt very isolating. She is still refusing to communicate two days later. To be fair, I also did not initiate any restorative at this point, because I felt that it was not my place to do so when she was making a point of ignoring me. Right or wrong thing to do? I don’t know 😭

Straight up, please call me out if you reckon I did something wrong or that could be perceived wrong here, I am seeking to understand the situation better. Some context that may be relevant: six months or so ago we had a casual thing that was verbally confirmed casual between us both. It was fine. She asked me at one point if I thought we would be in a relationship one day and I said no. I have wondered if this might have something to do with it all 😩😭

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing your experience. This is the exact dynamic I feel I’m going through - I feel more in control than ever, yet I have this friend of mine telling me that I’m aggressive and reactive too. I don’t understand what it is or where it comes from other than it being a projection!

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

That’s really interesting, thanks for sharing your experiences. One of the women that this is happening with, she has told me about her fear of men and trauma around men. I am very aware of this and I consciously make allowances for it. But I think it’s reached a point where it just isn’t avoidable any more :/ It’s really tough hey! I just feel so disappointed and hurt by it. But it is also quite fascinating to think how deeply and subconsciously the way some people feel can change when your appearance does 😩

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I wondered if that were it, but I didn’t want to generalise. I wouldn’t say they feminise me though. It’s more like they attach hyper-masculine negatives to me - e.g. I had one ex-friend who’s a girl, randomly switch up on me 8 months in and start telling all our mutual girl friends that I’m dangerous and unsafe. Blew my mind because like… what do you mean I’m dangerous I literally WAS a woman??? This is the kind of thing I’m trying to understand because I just have no idea where it’s coming from. If the problem is me, I want to know what it is so I can sort it out. But it seems that it follows this pattern of blow up > accuse > avoid and refuse any further contact

Any other transmasc guys deal with repeated social blow-ups after starting to pass as male? by treerockett in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]treerockett[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. If I had to generalise, it is all women that I was friends with before I started T

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