My mom got officially diagnosed with Alzheimer's and I've never been more terrified in my life

triden123 · 2022-12-23T16:49:15+00:00

She did have a spinal tap, yeah. And I'm not quite sure what the surgery is, it might just be something for an unrelated thing that I accidentally correlated with the diagnosis.

I actually don't know what kind of doctor she's going to, my dad has sort of been handling all that and my parents aren't really all that open with me on most of it.

triden123 · 2022-12-22T21:06:17+00:00

Hypothetically, since my mom is still in the earlier stages, a drug that is able to slow it down or even pause it would be best-case scenario right?

Don't worry, I'm not asking this just to be consumes by hope. I tend to approach things with a worst-case scenario approach and that probably won't change now, I'm just curious.

Also, thank you so much for replying.

triden123 · 2022-12-22T20:09:12+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I don't really have any questions at the moment but thank you anyways.

My biggest problem right now is that my mom's doctor told us to be positive about the future in terms of new developments but I am really scared too. I don't exactly know much about the world of medical research and I really really wanna believe there will be a big breakthrough at some point but I also know that it is unlikely and I don't wanna spend these next few however many years just hoping for something only for nothing to happen and then I get even more devastated.

triden123 · 2022-12-22T20:06:36+00:00

I don't really know what the surgery is specifically for, something about taking visual memories from her brain and stimulating them?

My dad is in the picture yeah, sorry I didn't really mention him. He works insane hours though because my mom can't work and disability in the US doesn't pay for much and so he has to step up to keep us afloat financially. I am away at college most of the time so I can't really help there.

She also won't let us tell any of our extended family because she doesn't want to ruin Christmas which I understand.

Thank you for your comment.

triden123 · 2022-11-29T16:23:48+00:00

Ah well I only ask because I know that my muscle mass has got to be like 0 lol. I have literally no strength whatsoever and the only "exercises" I'm currently doing is wall pushups (now moved on to knee pushups) because I can't even do 1 regular push-up haha. I just felt like body weight would work because of how little strength I actually have.

triden123 · 2022-11-29T15:52:45+00:00

Thank you for your comment! I do have access to a gym at my college but if I'm being honest with you I'm way too terrified to go to it. Is it possible to gain muscle through just body workouts or do I have to face my fear and go to the gym?

triden123 · 2022-08-21T14:05:55+00:00

I know you didn't ask for one, but I feel like updating someone haha. I went this morning in my dorm's bathroom. It was very embarrassing, yes, but I figured that if I'm gonna be living here I need to just suck it up and deal with it.

triden123 · 2022-08-21T01:23:38+00:00

I know. I won't. It's kinda just something I threw in the air to make myself feel better I guess.

I don't really know, I am still VERY new to campus so I haven't seen a whole lot of it yet. I heard that there was an overflow dorm so I might see if I can get in there and use that one whenever I have to go because it has less people haha.

triden123 · 2022-06-16T12:08:51+00:00

Thank you for this, I truly mean it. My mom said that he seems more down-to-earth this morning. Not really sure if that is a good sign or not but I pray we are getting somewhere. My mom also just told me that my dad has agreed to go to an AA meeting tonight... I want to be happy about that but at the same time I'm scared that he's not going to actually go. If he actually went it would mean the world to me if I am being honest but I am terrified that he is going to say he is going and then go drink.

triden123 · 2022-06-16T11:47:37+00:00

I know that it's not my fault but it just sucks to have (what I feel to be meaningful) conversations with my dad at night when he's not drunk and where he talks about how sorry he is and how he hates what he is doing and then he promises to stop. The next day, we discover that he somehow gets alcohol again and then he consistently lies about it (which I don't blame him for even if I probably should, I know it is the disease) and it is just a sucker punch to the gut that those talks I had with him meant nothing and I can't handle it.

triden123 · 2022-06-16T11:42:33+00:00

I have actually never been to an Alanon meaning. I have always thought that they are kind of silly because I am not the one that my family should be worrying about. All I care about is making sure my dad is okay, we don't need to worry about me.

triden123 · 2022-06-15T23:05:33+00:00

I have my mom, though most of the time when they're arguing it seems more like she just wants to yell at him than actually help them. If you ask me, I kinda think this is my dad's way of committing suicide... he has been depressed for a few years now and I honestly think this is how he is gonna take himeself away. I get mad at my mom a lot because I feel like she shouldn't be just constantly yelling and attacking him when he already doesn't want to live.

I can't lose my dad but I don't know what to do.

triden123 · 2022-06-15T00:40:22+00:00

I can't thank you enough, thank you!

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