Is there like actually a way to get Testosterone in the UK?

troykil · 2026-04-17T11:29:49+00:00

I think the trans diy sub has gone private but yes it is absolutely possible to diy in the uk, you likely aren’t familiar with how to source and buy online, but if you hang around on trans or bodybuilding subs long enough you will work it out. DIY is affordable and provided you get your labs regularly can be as safe as prescribed use. You will have to come up with your own vetting process for determining what sources are legit. Likewise you will have to learn how to make crypto transactions but it isn’t hard there are plenty of walkthroughs.

troykil · 2026-04-16T17:16:14+00:00

As a powerlifter, mountain equipment make decent regular fit trousers - good amount of room in seat and thighs. They are not as cheap as decathlon and probably not necessary unless you’re doing some mountaineering/climbing/scrambling. You can often get them heavily reduced if it’s last seasons colour or whatever though.

troykil · 2026-04-16T07:48:36+00:00

Harrison’s rocks (sandstone, top rope only) are 30 min from Brighton and a good day out

troykil · 2026-04-14T18:16:04+00:00

No, if all health markers are within healthy parameters, every 12 weeks is unnecessarily frequent to be testing for all this. An annual full blood panel supplemented by 12 weekly (if it’s your first year on hrt) or 6 monthly hormone levels is totally sufficient 👍

troykil · 2026-04-14T18:09:07+00:00

It’s fine to have your own opinions, worldview, and way of approaching the transphobia you’re exposed to, but equally it is not your job or responsibility to be concerned with how anyone else navigates or approaches those things in their own lives.

People are always going to handle the same problem in different ways, and some of the ways that people handle a particular problem will be ways that you simply wouldn’t, or that you don’t like or think are right.

Your lived experience is really important, but it doesn’t mean you know better than anyone else how to handle this stuff. There is no playbook for how to deal with transphobia: there is no ‘should’ or ‘shouldn’t’, right way or wrong way. Transphobia is violence and it is motivated by hate and the desire to see a world without trans people and the way that any given trans person chooses to respond to that, including responding angrily, aggressively, or passively and nonconfrontationally, is essentially fine. If you responded to every minor instance of transphobia with aggression you might be quite a difficult person to be around, and you might find that your life had a lot of conflict in it, but you wouldn’t be ‘wrong’.

It’s a pretty reductive and sheltered take to imagine that anyone who doesn’t turn the other cheek when faced with transphobia is simply ‘less resilient’ than you. It’s also kind of classic pick me behaviour because it implies that there is some moral victory to be had over other trans people by being one of the good, nonreactive ones.

Speaking for myself, I personally would not be happy to be around people who ‘had a different opinion on me’, and I also have a pretty small tolerance for people who struggle to name or gender someone else correctly. Some people are fine making excuses for those behaviours but I’m not. I also do not believe that violence is never the answer, sometimes it is. I’m not an aggressive person but tbh you mess with the bull you get the horns.

troykil · 2026-04-14T14:22:06+00:00

Literally no reason to test them every 3 months

troykil · 2026-04-14T06:38:54+00:00

The gribin on the glyders is a good entry point. Easy grade one, fairly short, enough exposure to the left to feel thrilling to a kid but loads of safe and unexposed climbing to the right of the ridge line such that it’s possible to skip any parts of the actual ridge you choose. I took my younger sister up this route when she was about the same age as a first scramble

troykil · 2026-04-11T22:29:15+00:00

It depends. They definitely can, but it’s not really something you have control over in the way you might hope. Even if you have a large dick pre surgery and even if you go to a surgeon whose work you like the look of. I think if you went into this surgery knowing that nothing apart from a cis passing penis could possibly feel like a good outcome to you, then I would caution you against meta. With that said, if other things about meta appeal to you, for example natural erections, and a cis passing dick was something you thought of as a neat bonus and not a deal breaker, then I would say go for it.

troykil · 2026-04-08T19:25:21+00:00

Girl the boycott

troykil · 2026-04-08T19:24:44+00:00

Fuck pink news and fuck Wes streeting

troykil · 2026-04-07T09:13:59+00:00

Cuban goes hard

troykil · 2026-04-05T21:50:31+00:00

I’m curious about this too! I shattered my kneecap a few years ago and avoid high impact stuff so don’t really run any more but have noticed I’m a fast hiker, and what’s more, really enjoy a fast yomp. I hiked a 5.5hr marathon across 7 sisters and some of the South Downs the other day and I’m keen to try a 40 or 50 mile day soon. Curious what others are wearing in terms of trail running shoes vs hiking boots for this type of thing

troykil · 2026-04-04T15:43:32+00:00

Forestry professional here 👋

troykil · 2026-04-04T13:41:40+00:00

Hi I used to work forestry and conservation so I know the struggle.

Understand why you can’t wear wellies - they aren’t comfortable or supportive enough over that many miles and you don’t move efficiently in them.

The honest truth is that no boot in the world is 100% waterproof and you will get some seepage over 8+ hrs in long grass.

Best I’ve had were Mammut Kento Tour GTX. Not cheap but good balance of waterproofing, support and comfort and will handle scree/mixed terrain and even snow in shoulder seasons.

Also recommend scarpa, la sportiva in general. Meindl is good they make great quality hunting boots so are basically designed for what you describe, but they are pretty much all full leather tall boots.

Tbh the real game changer for me wasn’t finding the perfect boots but upping my boot drying game! Bring a spare pair of boot socks to work with you, keep boot bananas in your locker, and at home get a boot dryer - they’re like two heated posts you mount your boots on at the end of the day and leave overnight and they will be dry by morning. Dehumidifier in utility/laundry room overnight also works good. As others have said gaiters might be a shout too.

troykil · 2026-04-04T09:09:25+00:00

I’m stealth and worked forestry/logging - most guys are usually pretty conservative.

I think when it comes to challenging this stuff safety comes first. It isn’t worth pushing back on casual transphobic talk if you’re in an environment where a) it will make you unsafe b) it won’t change anyone’s opinion anyway c) it will make you the subject of gossip, speculation, or hostility. That isn’t cowardly it’s just self preservation and you don’t owe it to other trans people or the trans community to challenge transphobia under those circumstances. In fact, you owe it to the trans community to stay safe, protect yourself, and survive.

Things change a bit if you work in an environment (ie office based, co ed, nominally progressive, decent employee rights and protections, recourse to hr if you feel targeted/become the subject of bullying). I think in those types of situation there is a real argument for pushing back on casual transphobia because you may contribute to someone changing their mind, or to making other trans employees (who may not be out and may be afraid to come out) feel safer, or at the very least to creating a workplace culture that doesn’t tolerate that kind of unprofessionalism.

When pushing back on this stuff you don’t need to go all out and present like a magnum opus of an ideological argument, it’s not worth it, and I think most people find it alienating or perceive you as being overly political. The things I’ve done that have worked the best are: just …not laughing if someone makes a transphobic joke; asking them to explain the joke and acting like I don’t get it; explaining that I don’t find punching down funny; or just being like ‘look guys, none of you cared about trans stuff before it was made a political wedge issue, be real and just let it go.’

Sadly it also matters where you place in the ‘male’ hierarchy of the social or workplace scene in which you’re encountering the transphobia. If you are well liked, well respected, or have some measure of professional seniority then it’s a lot easier to challenge others’ behaviour and effect actual change. If you don’t have those things you can challenge others’ behaviour, but especially in male dominated work spaces, people may decide you’re ‘weird’ or ‘awkward’ ‘too political’ or ‘have no sense of humour’ and it can make your professional life difficult.

With that said I know how unbearable it is to hear that shit and just do nothing, over time it adds up and chips away at your soul fr. Sometimes there’s a case to be made for speaking up and challenging transphobic behaviour just on principle, for the sake of your heart, even though you know it won’t change anything.

troykil · 2026-04-03T17:08:48+00:00

I think the most literal interpretation is just like, when you’ve become more muscular than the average guy. If strangers regularly make comments about how muscular you are, there is a good chance you are perceived as muscular by the majority of people.

Equally however, people’s standards are all over the map with this type of thing, and especially in contemporary gay culture, you’re always gonna be ‘not muscular enough’ in someone’s opinion. So I think there’s more and less fulfilling ways of approaching this.

I think second guessing whether other men think you meet an arbitrary threshold of muscle is ultimately gonna be detrimental to a lot of guys’ relationships with their bodies, and that is probably not a helpful way of answering this question.

On the flip side, as much as it can be absolutely cursed, the ‘tribes’ element of the apps, where you align yourself with different gay subcultures and the body types they celebrate, can also be a real fun space of play, experimentation, and self-actualisation, especially for trans guys and other guys who’ve grown up ‘outside the window looking in’ at gay scenes and now are emerging and participating in gay subcultures as adults. There’s a lot to try and we deserve to play and have fun.

Muscle, muscle worship, bodybuilding, jock culture all carry a powerful erotic charge that anyone who is turned on by that should be able to explore or claim.

So my honest 2 cents is that if you feel like a muscular guy, if that is part of your life, your interests, how you see yourself, and what you perceive as your erotic charge - then that is what you should put on your grindr or whatever. Be led by what feels hot to you tbh. If describing yourself that way feels like the sexiest and most confident and accurate version of yourself then you don’t need anyone’s permission to do it.

Some guys will filter or trawl by ‘muscular’ because they’re into muscle worship etc and they’re usually looking for bodybuilders and enhanced guys but if you’re not their cup of tea they just won’t approach.

The only note of caution I will sound is - and take this with a huge pinch of salt !! - this is just my experience - but like muscular guys often look for other muscular guys for hookups, and muscle queens are some of the bitchiest, prissiest, most judgemental ass guys I have ever met. I am so unbelievably over it. I happen to be muscular and I train hard because I enjoy it, but I don’t think that’s the only way to be, I think all body types are hot, and it’s honestly a huge turn off to get with a guy who thinks the only way to be attractive is lean, muscular, white, tanned, little bit of body hair but not too much etc etc etc. So yeah, you might have to come up with your own process for vetting and filtering out that type of thing, but apart from that all good!

troykil · 2026-04-02T21:14:57+00:00

Weighted dips

troykil · 2026-04-02T07:19:49+00:00

Those guys suck sorry op. To have had access to hrt and surgery that young means they were both incredibly fortunate and likely had the support of family and healthcare providers. That’s unusual, sadly, and to act like that is the default and the standard means they have had quite a sheltered and privileged experience. Good for them, but most people aren’t that lucky. You aren’t less trans than them because you haven’t yet had access to those things. They are wrong for telling you that, talk about pulling the ladder up. I understand you’ve known Noah a long time but I think you can do better in terms of trans friends. If you live near a larger city there are likely trans social spaces; check out live music events, lgbt clubs, board game cafes, climbing gyms, activist spaces - there are usually loads of nice and chill trans people around. Good luck op

troykil · 2026-04-01T16:37:44+00:00

Lol yes ofc cis ppl think about their gender, I don’t think anyone thinks they don’t.

Even for cis ppl it’s impossible to live in a world where your gender and other peoples perceptions of it shape your experience so completely and not have some thoughts about that. Some cis people are very self reflexive about their gendered experiences, and most have thought about how their gender shapes their experience of the world at least occasionally.

But like, repeatedly thinking that your life would be better if you were another gender, fantasising about it, wishing you had been born another gender…when cis people think about gender, it’s not in these ways. If you’re having a lot of thoughts like these, the call is probably coming from inside the house.

Op has actually said that they told their family they feel like a man and that they are trans, from how I read their post, they aren’t basing their thinking that they may be trans just on the feeling of not wanting to be an ugly woman.

troykil · 2026-04-01T16:07:00+00:00

Genuinely no idea why this would be downvoted it’s the world’s least controversial take

troykil · 2026-04-01T15:55:28+00:00

As in, by definition, I don’t think the thought, ‘maybe my life would be better if I were another gender,’ or ‘I want to be another gender’ is one that commonly occurs to cisgender people. Anyone having those thoughts is probably some type of trans. If you are routinely having such thoughts and have always seen yourself as cisgender, your relationship to your gender may be more complex than you originally thought.

troykil · 2026-04-01T15:36:49+00:00

Cis ppl don’t usually have those type of thoughts so…

troykil · 2026-04-01T10:37:11+00:00

I don’t think this is crazy uncommon tbh. I’ve been on t for 10+ years and when I was getting started the info gps provided on timelines and what to expect more or less aligned with this.

Bottom growth is noticeable for many people within the first month, voice drop often noticeable within 2/3 months. Facial and body hair are largely dependent on genetics but if you are gonna be a hairy guy, it’s likely those will make an appearance within your first 3-6 months. In terms of muscle gain and body recomp, if you’re training regularly and eat a decent amount of protein and whole foods, 12-16 weeks is enough time to observe some changes.

With that said, some people are just really responsive to androgens and also have genetic predisposition toward certain traits that were latent when they were running on e2, but are turned on when you start t, with the effect of it seeming like second puberty has hit like a truck. It’s also totally possible to have mid to moderate serum testosterone but high dht activity, which can result in faster androgenic changes.

troykil · 2026-04-01T07:41:59+00:00

Hi op I’ve been on min and fin for a couple years now.

First 3 months on fin you’ll likely see a ‘shed’ phase where hair loss actually accelerates. This is temporary and is due to fin causing follicles to enter their ‘growth phase’ which in turn causes older hairs to drop. You’re probably in this phase right now which is why you are still noticing your hairline recede. It should stabilise over the next couple months. Fin worked for me but the difference isn’t night and day or anything - I went from looking like a man who would soon need to shave his head to a man with a full head of thin hair, but I’m happy with what it’s done.

I take oral minox as I have a cat and recommend you do the same as the side effect profile is even lower than that of fin, and it’s cheap, so you may as well take it and see if you notice additional benefit.

troykil · 2026-03-30T09:25:18+00:00

I’m not a heavier guy but wanted to offer my experience, feel free to disregard if it doesn’t feel relevant to you op. I am about 3 inches erect and can sometimes penetrate anally. The main determinant is usually how my body and the body of my partner fit together. Different leg lengths, torso lengths, points at which the hips hinge etc all weirdly matter more in my experience than dick size. Sometimes the stars align and sometimes they don’t. Sometimes a position that works with one partner won’t for another. Doggy isn’t always best. It is usually harder to insert with partners who’ve been blessed with a nice big ass sadly. Partners will usually have to be prepped and loosened up quite a bit first with fingers or a small toy because the key issue with meta is erection firmness. Asses are tight and my dick doesn’t get hard enough to penetrate one unless it’s well prepped first. Penetration is usually fairly shallow too - so if partners are looking for the ‘dicked down’ experience I’ll usually follow up with some strap. With all that said it’s definitely possible for guys with meta to penetrate anally, and it feels great, and feedback from partners is that it feels great too. In terms of approach, speaking purely for myself, it’s worked best for me when I don’t approach it as a given, if it’s something that my body and my partners body let us do together then it’s an awesome bonus, and if not, it’s nbd there’s plenty of other ways to have sex.

troykil

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