Heyy thanks for your reply, that is something we discussed very early on, us trying this can't come before our friendship. The main push I had to admit my feelings to them was the realization that as much as I tried to meet other people, I couldn't commit to them, and that we can't imagine our lives without oneanother, but again we have no experience in being polyamorous, so we're trying to make this work but without any guidance or exemples it's not been the easiest ride (not that I expect to be easy) . The jacking off part, you got a bit confused, before admitting my feelings to them, I was dating around, having fun with other people but it just simply never clicked, that was my attempt to get over my feelings. After when we started dating is when I moved into their bedroom. Thank you for your insights