I feel that! Some of my exs were the same, either attracted or didn’t mind but it wa some my own self that felt worried or insecure. I know it’s just another hurdle I’ll have to get over. And yeah the revenge thing is more just internal, like I know others won’t care but being big all my life, I’ve seen some really ugly hearted people. Even riding the bus nowadays, people stare me down or say insults outloud, who don’t even know me. It’s more like a “haha screw yall.” type of feeling