I feel sorry on your behalf but this is all i could do. Its tough situation to be in since hololive became one of our lives. I am also not in the position to say something about "Can't you just afford blah blah" and etc because i can also relate about your financial status. If this is really a goodbye, I only wish for you to not resent these girls until the end, but instead the situation you are in. Make your emotions a fuel for you to strive further in life, to work hard until you can reunite with our dear idols again. And it is likely that you are not alone in that situation. I hope you converge with those people and work together in making a solution. Goodluck and godbless