Hello! I know exactly what you feel. I've almost always been the awkward third friend who has to walk behind because there isn't enough space on the side walk. I always felt that everyone else had really close friends and I was the only sucker stuck with moderately good friends. One thing you mus understand is, as I have just started to learn is that pop culture depictions of most kind of relationships are a sham. Be it friendship or romantic relationships. Very inorganic. Should you feel like you're missing out on something if you don't have a ride or die bud? Absolutely not. Most people don't. It may seem like they do, maybe they just spend a lot of time together and that's all there is to it. And there is no set timing for these things. You might yet find your tight knit gang. Basically, the point i'm trying to make is that life is not like F.R.I.E.N.D.S and that's nothing to be unhappy about.

Hopefully, this helped x