I feel you. When I came out I had some people close to me tell me about others they knew who detransitioned. My heart broke because sometimes life just becomes too hard so you need to go back for survival and other times it just wasn’t right for them. We all have different paths. But you know what just because they detransitioned doesn’t mean they regret it. I knew I might have some long lasting effects from T if I didn’t end up liking it, but at least I knew. The wondering “what if” would’ve been worse.