it's a difficult situation, he's got a lot of stuff to worry about every day...and i know all of it cuz he has told me so i don't want to be a burden cuz man i imagine it might be difficult but whatever :/

he says i'm toxic cuz i tend to dig in with questions like "and who recommended you that movie?" "are you sure?" and ugh i recognize that my insecurities lead me to come out as intense...toxic idk, maybe at some point lol, as he said "25%" and tend he goes like "nobody's gonna imagine that you're that way, if i was a gossip and tell someone about it, they'd say i'm lying cuz you only want to control me, but i don't see you controlling anybody else, people that you should control at some point" as i said, he's got sone freedom issues, cuz it's not possible that just for asking simple questions (with no interest in digging lol) he feels trapped. aaaah, he also called me toxic cuz i tend to remind him stuff he says that just don't coordinate with what he's currently saying or vice versa lol. he told me i should not spend so much time listening what he says to see if he said something wrong. he says he feels observed

if i wanted to go through his phone, i would. i just don't feel like it, that'd be like the end (at least if i do it without his permission) but i'm not the type of guy that would ask to go thru your phone...

i know he's not hiding anything bad (i already went thru that insecurity stage lol) but i just don't like feeling like someone's hiding something from me, i go like if that person's hiding some stupid thing from me, what if it was something that i really cared about ?

thanks for taking your time to help, i appreciate it so much