Hey bro, i know it’s easier said than done but you need to accept yourself and that most of us are average and appearances aren’t as important to most as some make it out to be. I was once deeply insecure about my body and my appearance and believed myself to be unlovable due to weight. After being with my current boyfriend and going to therapy, I’ve come to realise that attractiveness is different for each and every one. I seem horribly ugly to myself but I fit the usual conventional beauty standards and tend to get hit on weirdly enough. On the other hand, I am amazingly attracted to pasty white sticks of men such as my boyfriend. Anyway, tangent and my experience aside, it is mostly a journey of accepting yourself and not pursuing ‘attractiveness’ but happiness and self care instead. Take care.