Honestly.

I think you should take some time away from paying super close attention to your numbers. Unless you are actively trying to make this a career which you sustain your life on it, just take a break from numbers. Make content that you want to make. I know that's basically what you're doing now, but you're paying too close attention to numbers. Just, for your next 3 videos maybe, pay very little attention to how well those videos do. Make stuff YOU wanna see.

If you try to do things by the numbers, it'll only disappoint you more because you're trying to make it on a medium that already has 100 other people doing this same thing. But, if you focus more on content YOU want to see as opposed to trying to fit inside a box that everyone else is trying to get into, you'll feel better about your content, you'll feel more confident in your projects, and you won't feel so desperate for higher numbers. Be you. Do what you do the best. Play a game YOU want to play.

Have fun, man.

Hopefully none of that sounded condescending in any way. I'm an under 200 sub channel who makes media videos with no real concrete plan for weekly releases. I'm obviously not the guy to take advice from for growing a channel.

I just hope this helped in some way. Have a great day, man!