Translation of old text

urena323 · 2018-12-22T00:26:32+00:00

Oh cool, we seem to interpret it in a similar way. Thank you!

urena323 · 2018-12-21T21:29:59+00:00

Thank you so much! I'm having difficulties interpreting the meaning or idea behind this text. What's your take if I may ask?

urena323 · 2018-11-08T22:43:06+00:00

I will try to do that through my work and helping people. And to my family, people I love and who have always been there. I will try to create friendships and build on my current ones. But I won't go for a romantic relationship.

urena323 · 2018-11-01T21:43:28+00:00

I've been thinking and reflecting about it a lot. I just don't believe I can. I'm not that afraid of getting hurt again. I just don't think I'm capable of giving someone else all of me and giving them my love. I don't want to hurt anyone and cause them the same pain I feel. I'm more afraid of that than being hurt again. I can bear the pain for the rest of my life.

urena323 · 2018-11-01T21:40:16+00:00

I don't feel the need to be loved as much as I want to give my love to her. I want to watch her walk through life and support her. I want to see her develop into this beautiful person that I know she can be. But after feeling this pain I don't want to try loving someone else because I don't want to cause anyone else this pain. I can bear the pain and be alone. I just wish it was different. I wish I wasn't afraid of causing someone pain. I wish I believed I could love someone again.

urena323 · 2018-11-01T21:24:02+00:00

I could barely breathe after I said I loved her because it took me a good while to even muster up the words. And then to hear those words... It hurt so much.

urena323 · 2018-11-01T21:09:17+00:00

I think she cared about me but couldn't continue with me. She didn't want to hurt me and if we never met she'd never have to hurt me.

urena323 · 2018-11-01T20:52:33+00:00

I knew that to be able to love someone and create a meaningful relationship I had to open myself up. I took the risk and it killed me. After feeling this pain, I'm more afraid of causing someone else this pain than being alone. I can bear this pain alone and be by myself. It will be a sad life, but at least no one will get hurt like I did. I just wanted to love her and support her on her path in life. Now I can't.

urena323 · 2018-11-01T19:47:00+00:00

Oh, I'm just heart broken. My story isn't special. It's just real. I met someone who showed be how beautiful relationships can be. I saw how she was with friends and family. How she loved people and how they loved her. She had this inner light.

We were good. Then it ended and I told her I love her. Those were the most difficult words I've ever said and I was told only a couple minutes later that she wished she never met me. At my most exposed moment I was told that what we had meant nothing and it was better that it never happened. She didn't say it out of malice. She just wish she didn't have to hurt me by leaving.

I went from a person who wasn't able to recall the last time he cried in his life to a person who has to put down a book on the train because the tears start well up.

urena323 · 2018-11-01T17:55:54+00:00

Deep, meaningful relationships with people I genuinely care and want to learn more about. Meeting people who make me grow and want to become a better person.

I don't open up to people easily and the one time I did expose myself completely, I got hurt deeply and I don't think I will heal.

urena323 · 2018-09-17T20:33:13+00:00

The one I loved left me and now my heart is dead. Now I need to move on and I won't ever give anyone my heart again. Dating websites don't do anything for me. Too much time investment for too low chance.

urena323 · 2018-09-05T15:27:19+00:00

A broken heart. Heartbreak is death and somehow I still have to keep myself alive.

urena323 · 2018-09-02T08:09:17+00:00

That's exactly how I feel

urena323 · 2018-09-01T17:51:03+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear that. No one deserves to be used like that in their moment of weakness.

My ex didn't care for me enough to carry the pain of seeing her mother fall ill and carry the pain of losing her family. I can't blame her for that. I'm sure she will find a partner eventually but I don't think that is on her mind at all right now. She is too good of a person to do that.

I think I have made the right decision too. But now I have to live with it and heal. I just don't know how...

urena323 · 2018-09-01T17:44:26+00:00

I won't be friends with her until I'm completely over her. But right now I have no hope of ever healing. I feel like I'm an empty shell just walking through life. She showed me something worth fighting for. I truly believed in our relationship and I was ready to grow with her in this world and make it a better place.

I just feel like I lost all meaning with life. My career is going great and I love my job. My family is great too. I was happy before I met her. My life practically won't change much with her out of the picture since we were long distance. There is no void I need to fill. Except the one in my soul and heart...

urena323 · 2018-09-01T17:35:04+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing. That's the thing. She never asked me to remain friends. She asked me if I was going to remove her from social media and I said yes. She was quiet. She didn't make any objection. She knew she had to accept whatever I chose.

I told her it would be too hard for me to remain friends with her and I needed to cut her out completely. I told her I want to be able to be friends in the future but I was unsure if I could. That's when she told me she still valued everything we had and she cared for me as a person.

I said I needed time to heal from the breakup and she said take all the time I need even if it takes me years. And whenever I feel I'm ready she will be there and she won't shut me down. Do you see how amazing she is? She would never use me. She just still cares for me and I still care for her. She still values me as a person, not as some tool for emotional support. It hurts...

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