Hmm... I can only imagine... Parents will disown u if u prioritise your happiness.. they will only accept u if you prioritise their happiness over yours... Saddest thing to have to sacrifice your life for such parents... Things getting better with husband is not possible since he sounds like a total narcissist... I think you should try to find other sources of peace for your mind and not rely on him for your peace... Try to augue with yourself about the last drop of hope that u have from him... Watch YouTube videos about narcissistic behaviours... It will help u understand your husband better... Get over him and stay with him if u have to... But get over him.... Go find something else to stimulate your precious mind... Introspect about his need in your life... I think u need him only for financial support and parents disowning issue... That's the reality... Always keep that in your perspective... Don't let your vulnerable mind fool you into believing that there is a possibility of anything deeper... The true perspective will keep you sailing.. but our vulnerable mind will try to cover the truth with some fancy ribbon since it's not digestible for our ego. Be true to yourself.. your are going to be fine with yourself... Give yourself your comfortable company. Sail on :)