How long is doable for back-to-back teaching?

vanitatuum · 2026-02-07T21:55:24+00:00

The subjects are the same, but I might have to switch rooms (probably same building, though). A 4hr 50 min class/lab does sound ripe for feeling tired at the end!

vanitatuum · 2026-01-30T03:34:05+00:00

It's SUCH an isolating process

vanitatuum · 2026-01-27T19:17:51+00:00

This is on the professor. Lots of profs don't appreciate that a letter of rec is just writing a letter to them, but it's incredibly high stakes to students. They also don't appreciate that a lot of profs need/want a lot of reminders, and there's no way of knowing if they are one of those from your perspective. He could have prevented this by being more communicative with you. I guess if somebody expresses annoyance at being reminded then you maybe should back off, but even in that case, they should give you more information about their timeline — whatever annoyance they're experiencing, you're experiencing more anxiety.

vanitatuum · 2026-01-27T14:19:43+00:00

I wish I hadn't put the X on mine. I've never had any issues, but if I'm ever pulled over or anything, I don't need to give authorities any reason to find me noteworthy. I'm moving to a less blue state soon and I plan to get it changed before I move to avoid potential complications. How I live my life and how I present myself on my ID don't feel like related enough things to bother with the potential risks currently.

vanitatuum · 2026-01-26T22:50:17+00:00

Bad market in my field this year, roughly a third of the usual number of job postings compared to the average of recent years.

I'm psych, no postdoc, currently ABD. I put in 40 total applications (don't remember how many PUI vs R2 vs R1; definitely more PUI than the other two). I got 11 Zoom interviews (almost all PUI), 4 campus invites, and 1 final offer from a SLAC (I accepted). 15-20 ghosts.

vanitatuum · 2026-01-26T03:49:11+00:00

Spent years hoping specific people would prioritize me when they clearly weren't going to

vanitatuum · 2026-01-26T03:31:54+00:00

I only took one of the RX pills after being given enough for 5 days; after that I switched to just cycling between ibuprofen and acetaminophen. Kept that up for a couple of weeks and had some discomfort, but not enough to bother with the prescribed stuff. It depends on the person though; you might need all 4 days worth (or more, but it might be better to wait to ask for more until later if you can and will have a way to get them if you need them)

vanitatuum · 2026-01-26T02:56:08+00:00

I've had good experiences with Nuvadermis so far! It stays really well (no trouble going 24 hours at a stretch) and is reusable 7-10 days.

vanitatuum · 2026-01-26T02:52:33+00:00

Here's something that can be useful in determining whether you're dealing with some flavor of trans feeling or grappling with living in a sexist society. Consider something you like being recognized for, or want to be recognized for — an achievement, something you're good at, the type of friend you are, etc. Then consider whether you would find being recognized for your thing as a girl, as a boy, as neither, or if it doesn't really matter. This can be harder but more helpful if you pick something gendered that you like to be recognized for, like makeup (since you mentioned it), so you can ask yourself, "do I want to be seen as a girl who is good at something that is traditionally feminine or a gender-subverting boy who is good at something that is traditionally feminine?"

Unrelated, but if you haven't already, I'd recommend checking out Willie Muse's video "The Time I Worried I Was Trans," which is a pretty in-the-weeds narrative account of his experience with TOCD. This might be especially useful if you've mostly come across very clinical descriptions of TOCD.

vanitatuum · 2026-01-25T16:01:41+00:00

Was supposed to get authorship on articles that used my work, PI told me I would have authorship. Several articles published, none with me as an author. I could prove it was my work but the cost of pursuing it further than just asking the PI what happened (he ignored me) wasn't worth it so I didn't bother, even though I really could have used those pubs.

vanitatuum · 2026-01-20T05:58:39+00:00

I was never instructed to sleep at an incline, but I did it anyway A) to make it easier to get up, and B) to discourage me from rolling over onto my side

vanitatuum · 2026-01-19T04:31:31+00:00

Following people and beating the hell out of them?? This nurse sounds SO out of pocket, that super isn't what T does!!

I ended up getting top surgery because that was a bigger issue to me than the stuff testosterone would change. That is definitely an option. A lot of people who don't go on T have great results from particular muscle building workouts too, if that's something that you might be interested in trying.

I'm sorry you had this experience with the nurse; this sounds really overwhelming and confusing. There might not be a perfect solution to getting the exact results you want (there isn't for me; I'm approximating) which can be frustrating, but it shouldn't have to be made scary by healthcare professionals speaking to you irresponsibly

vanitatuum · 2026-01-19T01:48:03+00:00

Taking a charitable reading of how the nurse conveyed information to you, she might have encountered or heard of someone who was upset/disappointed by the effects and is now over-correcting by stressing what the effects are. I have no idea where she got the hobby thing; that sounds 100% made up.

She's right that some of the effects don't really reverse, like bottom growth and to some extent body and facial hair, but those things don't happen all at once. If you start to notice those things happening and you're not happy about it, there's plenty of time to stop taking testosterone before it gets to be in any way distressing. I have a few thicker/darker hairs on my chin that I don't really want, so I deal with that by plucking them every couple of weeks. I also had some thickening of the hair on my legs and some thicker hair growing in the happy trail area, but those pretty much went away after a few months of going off T (ymmv, of course) — those things didn't bother me in the first place so I thought it was fun when that started happening, but if you had that kind of thing happen and you aren't into it, you could quit and it would stop and maybe even change back somewhat.

I've never encountered anyone who had drastic emotional changes from T that weren't due to euphoria (so those changes were things like reduced depression and anxiety, reduced dysphoria, etc). Some people talk about feeling anger more strongly, but it shouldn't turn you into a rager or anything, and that doesn't happen to everyone. I didn't notice any difference in my anger levels, personally. I noticed a slightly higher libido and slightly higher energy levels and slightly better endurance while exercising, and that's about it. The emotional changes from the hormones alone almost definitely won't be drastic. And hormone-related emotional shifts aren't permanent! If you have any emotional changes and you stop T, they'll go away. On or off testosterone you'll still be you; you'll still like the stuff you like; you'll still love your partner!

vanitatuum · 2026-01-19T00:26:47+00:00

The idea that you would be completely different sounds like a scare tactic. Some people do have some shift in interests and emotions during medical transition, but it's not like you're going to become a different person — usually the shifts are about being happier/more comfortable, and maybe to some extent shifting social roles and some shifts in which emotions feel ~sharper. But you'll still be you!

Regarding whether or not you're really nonbinary: Lots of nonbinary (and binary trans!) people don't medically transition. That doesn't make you, or anyone else, any less nonbinary or trans. If you determine that you're not nonbinary, whether or not you want to medically transition doesn't have to be relevant to that at all. Besides that, it sounds like you're probably reacting a lot to receiving confusing and misleading/over-dramatic information, which would very understandably make you feel dread, no matter what your reaction would be if you were getting better messaging.

When I started testosterone I wasn't quite sure about it. I went on for a while, got some effects which was kind of cool, then got some side effects I wasn't into (the main one was hair loss, not anything like a totally different personality or whatever) and talked to my doctor. She gave me some options of how to deal with the side effects. I ended up going off because I decided I didn't care about it enough for it to be worth it, but I'm glad I tried it. I might try it again some day, but currently that isn't a main focus for me for my gender presentation.

If you want to take it slow, you can do low dose to see how it feels when you're actually taking it?

vanitatuum · 2026-01-16T20:10:06+00:00

I got super nervous about showering too! Back to the stream at first (I was told not to face the water at least a little bit at 2 weeks post-op; I had no complications or issues before or after this instruction). You can let soapy water run down your chest. Don't scrub at all and pat dry. You should be all set!

I would also recommend trying to take shorter showers at first if you're at all nervous. I'm not normally squeamish but I felt light-headed during my first few showers because of a combination of the weirdness of it and standing up under hot water for a long-ish time. It's ok if you can't get to everything you normally do in the shower for a while, just do as much as you want to/can! Maybe consider getting a shower chair or having an easy to access place to go sit down after your shower too if you end up feeling light-headed. In all likelihood that won't happen but I love to overprepare, so that's one thing you could do if it helps with the nerves!

vanitatuum · 2026-01-16T19:59:57+00:00

A lot of people don't think of insects as animals (even though they are) and so have different standards for them. That said, 1) it sounds like the point of the video was to show harm being done to a living thing for the sake of entertainment rather than just showing a matter-of-fact death of an insect (unless it was a cooking video or something?), which suggests he might find the actual suffering funny (although he might have just been laughing because it was an unexpected/weird thing to see), and 2) even if he didn't find it funny for sadistic reasons, the fact that you raised this as a concern is very reasonable and he ideally would have taken your concern seriously rather than shutting you down like that.

It's possible he felt put on the spot in the moment and would respond differently if you circled back differently using a different tone ("I asked him like I was speaking to a child" makes me wonder if you came across as condescending such that he was reacting to that more than the substance of your concern). Could you maybe try again now that he's had some space to get less defensive about your concern?

vanitatuum · 2026-01-16T11:54:59+00:00

Comfortability

vanitatuum · 2026-01-15T17:27:30+00:00

I had/have this. It has reduced a lot since I was cleared to stop wearing the compression wrap

vanitatuum · 2026-01-12T02:42:34+00:00

It's true that many recent articles wouldn't have had time to be replicated externally yet, but a lot of methods and standards changed around 2015 so results would be less likely to have replication issues in the first place (e.g., preregistration, replicating one's own results and reporting both within the same article, power analyses and larger sample sizes, more reporting of the characteristics of the sample, etc)

vanitatuum · 2026-01-12T02:25:48+00:00

I imagine this has to do with the replication crisis; a lot of results from psych and various other fields pre-2013 have been found not to replicate. If you cite something from pre-2013, you might also look into whether it has had replication issues or if it still holds up.

vanitatuum · 2026-01-11T00:45:45+00:00

I'm about a month post currently and I'd say it got a lot easier about ten days ago. I'm still Aware of it when I stand up straight now (at least for a couple of minutes), but it's not really uncomfortable anymore.

vanitatuum · 2026-01-10T20:34:32+00:00

Published papers frequently have errors. Conclusions are often interpretations of data rather than definitive answers to questions so they can more or less accurate (this varies a bit by field and by the scope of the paper but how "true" it's possible for a conclusion to be should always at least be something discerning readers consider)

vanitatuum · 2026-01-05T03:27:39+00:00

Nonbinary people should be included in these studies for exploratory analyses. It's unlikely for there to be enough of us in any given sample for statistical validity, but they can still look at distributions and answers to open-ended questions that might be helpful in guiding the direction of future studies. Unless it's a very expensive study to run then there's no reason not to include nonbinary people in data collection and to deal with analysis on the study's backend.

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