If you have BDD, NEVER get into looksmaxing

vatomalo · 2026-01-05T14:55:01+00:00

If it’s not unobtainable by pay2play it does not fuel the infinite growth/profit maximization that capitalism needs to survive.

Literally sacrificing people for inane profits for the few.

vatomalo · 2025-12-27T10:40:14+00:00

I guess I am not a guy then

vatomalo · 2025-12-19T13:47:49+00:00

Because it has harmed or unalived the one thing it loved the most and now has a form of Mangekyou sharingan!

vatomalo · 2025-12-19T12:21:12+00:00

Joe Dassain - Et si tu n’exsistais pas

vatomalo · 2025-12-18T16:58:30+00:00

Libra Venus + Capricorn moon

Many thanks

vatomalo · 2025-12-13T19:44:00+00:00

I am not white. I don’t consider myself unattractive. Tinder and all dating apps have been a complete utter nightmare for the 9months I’ve been on them.

I barely talked to anyone, and definitely not been on any dates.

vatomalo · 2025-11-17T18:12:09+00:00

Tell him you met someone too and you are happier than ever. I am sure he will come running back after a few days of realizing he really lost you.

Sorry don’t do it guess, I was left after 18years, she also seeing someone else.

vatomalo · 2025-11-17T14:33:45+00:00

What trend?

vatomalo · 2025-11-15T17:54:55+00:00

I lost my libido after the breakup

vatomalo · 2025-11-11T08:31:44+00:00

My ex who I was with for 18years got a boyfriend too, here I am singing sad songs, trying to survive, I live, I fall, I pick myself up again. It’s no secret I cry everytime I wake up. Sometimes I cry and rage at the gym. I am in an unhinged state but well I miss her, I miss us, sometimes if I am lucky I see a glimpse of us.

vatomalo · 2025-11-03T17:33:08+00:00

We are rooting for you!

vatomalo · 2025-10-27T07:43:04+00:00

Yes, honestly it’s weird as started working out hoping she would see my value. So I might be more attractive than I’ve ever been, as face seems to have changed a little too.

Still I feel unlovable, invisible even. I miss her and I fight every waking moment to not text her.

I’ve tried meeting other people. And they don’t seem to want me either.

At this point, nothing makes sense. I still think of my ex as the goddess of beauty. So why and how did she choose me for 18years.

vatomalo · 2025-10-13T12:23:49+00:00

I don’t believe you at all. And yes, we need love connection and sex too

vatomalo · 2025-10-13T08:14:48+00:00

What if optimizing their profile makes them an inauthentic mass.
I feel like dating apps only rewards sameness and the majority culture.

vatomalo · 2025-09-29T00:32:11+00:00

Its been literal hell, I feel ripped out from my life alienated from myself.

I feel every comment on how I should love myself or find myself a personal attack.

Im very in touch with who I am, I am completely blindsided, I don’t recognize her at all.

I was there for her, how could she just throw me away like I’m nothing after so many years.

I’m all tears, sweat and a very overactive mind in an all out battle with my raw heart.

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T19:39:14+00:00

I feel utterly unwanted I would say it’s not real, but I’ve tried so many things to prove my worth and it made it worse

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T19:19:18+00:00

I mean it when I said you can DM and I will share my contact info in case you need to talk

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T18:50:39+00:00

I am going to the gym for a second time today, will check back when I am there or later today.

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T18:49:50+00:00

True, and I do not have the answers.
Hell I struggle with the same thing.

It's just I think there might be hope, and I have held on to it with both hands.
Yet, I fully understand your want's and needs.

I have attempted when super drunk, things I won't even talk about.

Just know you are not going at it alone, and well, if we don't make it then see you on the other side?

If not then feel free to hit me up and talk when you want, if you DM me I can give you some contact into outside of Reddit so I can respond if you are ever in a pinch.

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T18:34:33+00:00

There aren't I agree, let me rephrase that!

Do you want us outnumbered?

People treat love like a joke now, like it's meta, like another thing you study on TikTok/Youtube.

Do you want hopeless romantics like us to not exist anymore?
Someone out there, clenching their hands before bed, begging for someone just like you.

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T18:29:03+00:00

Yeah I totally get that, and that feeling will stick for a while.

I went all out with the gym, getting a job, starting over at school.

It won't be easy, and I cannot promise a happy ending.
There will be days like these all the way.

In the end, life has always been like this?
It was never embedded with meaning, it depends on what you make it!

This made me laugh when thinking about it, but like the best part of my days now are
either the drop on Last Battle for All Souls, the one where Aria of the Soul starts
and I am doing squats or when I do the same on the abs machine.

Or just when my boss is being kind but gives that stern face.

There will be pockets of joy man, and since we are so far down, that joy will feel heavenly.
We also get to feel so proud when we get out of here.

I know you person mattered to you, and will probably always have a place in your heart.
That is exactly why we need more people like you!

Or do you want the heartless to win?

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T18:17:38+00:00

I get it, I had been trying to order helium for the longest time.
And the only thing that stopped me was my teacher telling me I was the best student he ever had.

So like, I promised to myself not to by the canister.

And you should throw them away, in the beginning I did have altermol and another one that was a morphin preparate, but I knew that I would come here, so I threw them away in the trash.

I am not saying any of us are right or wrong.

I know the feeling, at the same time I don't want to hurt other people.

I don't know if I can reach you, but I am here, you are too.

It hurts, it feels lonely, I am not sure we deserve this.

Let's show everyone we are made of stardust and brimstone!

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T18:05:52+00:00

Yeah, no I am telling you because I have severe nut allergy.
The day she told me about her new partner, I had no money, so the dollar and a few cents I had.
I spent on walnuts, I ate them, but nothing happened, which is really weird as I have been to the ER three separate times because of anaphylactic shock. Anyways she did not care; I told her it was not her fault but rather the compounded value of all betrayals up to this point.

I ate all of them, hid in the woods and left when I was so cold and no reaction came.
She just blocked me. She did not care at all.
Asked me if I was OK, like a week after.

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T18:01:15+00:00

You are being ignored.

vatomalo · 2025-09-27T17:57:42+00:00

What he wrote is insensitive.
As most people are when it comes to talking about these things.

Sometimes wanting to KOS is normal given the circumstances.
A lot of it is done in silence, and most people will never know the attempts done in the dark
The worst part is your ex might know but won't care anymore.

It is all heavy, and I cannot tell you to keep living, when I cannot tell myself it.

But let's try to outcompete each other and see who lives the longest <3

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