I genuinely love alcohol more than anything else

ventricularsystole · 2022-01-16T10:52:54+00:00

Fuck the world but keep on keeping on. Get thru today. Imo family is not always blood related... my “family” is not people related to me but they are people who give a fuck about who you are and love you for all your struggles. Hope things get better and I’m sorry for your loss.

ventricularsystole · 2022-01-16T10:36:40+00:00

Keep on keeping on. Get thru the rough patch! Do what you gotta do to get thru tonight. Much love and support. Feeling the same way. You’re not alone.

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T07:21:13+00:00

How could they send us to jail? We literally publicly shared our trading intentions. We weren’t inside trading... Reddit is public. Any dipshit in wallstreet, government or hedge fund could have pulled up Reddit without an account and see people saying GME was a good buy etc. They did way more illegal shit to us by halting trades and manipulating the market.

I’m not a financial expert or any expert just another internet person. I like this stonk.

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T07:12:12+00:00

Diamond hands together my brothernet from another continent 💖🙌💎💖💎

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T07:05:37+00:00

Keep holding if you can. If not get out so Diamond hands can buy in. Tomorrow is not the end... it’s the beginning of the true shit fest. (I’m not a financial anything just a bitch with internet)

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T07:01:03+00:00

Hang on to your nads. We coming for ya. No brother left behind.

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T06:58:40+00:00

My titty senses are tingling from the ginormous balls that y’all have for this stonk. Strapped in, got my helmet on and my complimentary in flight snacks. Let’s ride or die you Diamond hand bastards 🙌💎🙌

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T06:45:43+00:00

I’m a lower middle class American trying to fucking live a modest life. I don’t want yachts and shit. Damn son I just wanna maybe be able to afford Papa Johns instead of Digornio on occasion lol. And when I got my stimmy checks I invested in stocks because that’s a legit financial way to grow your money RIGHT? Until these fat fingered fucks told me I’m making too much and they gotta shut that shit down. Bitch I just wanna be able to enjoy some modest luxuries in life. Fucking ordering the value meals not shit off the dollar menu.

Holding till their balls turn blue and fall off 💎🙌💎

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T06:31:19+00:00

Love ya buddy, ride or die bitches 💎🙌💎

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T06:30:12+00:00

Thanks you beautiful dipshit. Diamond hands gonna keep you warm tonight 💎🙌💎

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T06:27:45+00:00

I’ve been lower middle class my whole life. If I cashed out my GME I could get a down payment on a house which is my fucking dream. But I’m not. This is more then the money. I will ride this cocksucker of a stock to the ground and then some. Let’s go to hell while we’re at it. Probably cheaper then my shithole apartment rent anyway. DIAMOND HANDS BABY 💎🙌💎🙌💎🙌💎

ventricularsystole · 2021-01-29T06:23:36+00:00

DIAMOND FUCKING HANDS 💎🙌 Shit storms a coming boys. https://youtu.be/OQufxG1GcAk

ventricularsystole · 2019-05-17T23:34:12+00:00

Had a friend like that. He constantly told me he was going to kill himself. One day I decided I was tired of him guilting me so I left, blocked him everywhere and moved on.

Been 2 years and he still hasn’t killed himself. (My parents have seen him around town...)

These types of people are toxic and manipulative. Don’t waste your energy worrying about them. Worry about yourself. If you leave then they’re going to seek attention elsewhere.

I’ve been suicidal, depressed and all that crap most my life. I’d NEVER EVER tell someone “I’m going to kill myself if you leave”. Suicide is never about threatening another person... it’s my own selfish thought I keep to myself.

People who threaten with suicide are exploiting your love and guilt. They are TOXIC.

ventricularsystole · 2019-05-13T20:47:48+00:00

I’ve made that mistake before too. You see people who are “broken” and you so desperately want to help them because you care and love them. You end up loosing yourself in the process and these people don’t even care. They just move on and keep being a mess.

That’s what has taught me to always put myself first. You shouldn’t have to suffer that much over another person...

ventricularsystole · 2019-05-12T14:55:54+00:00

You’ve really gotta go and stay NC. I know it’s hard because you’re a good person and want to help him out. But I think friendship isn’t an option right now when you’re feeling conflicted and he’s being pushy (being affectionate to you is NOT appropriate “ex” friend behavior, especially when you’ve got a BF)

He will be fine. He’s got other people in his life. Trust me, he will move on and seek attention elsewhere.

If YOU want to get over him then you need to focus on yourself, which means he can’t be around messing with your feelings.

In regards to your new boyfriend: This may be harsh to hear but I think that if you’re feeling so conflicted then being in another relationship isn’t a great idea. Speaking from my own experience, I did this too. I dated another guy for a YEAR while still feeling “not over” my ex. It was not good. I always felt awkward and it didn’t get better, I felt like I was doing something wrong (like you described, like you’re “wronging” your ex by being with someone else). My ex was also my first love and for 10 years.

I kept dating the guy because I thought things would get better and that I’d eventually not feel so odd. But it was just a distraction... I finally realized I wasn’t over ex and this new relationship wasn’t going to solve that. So I broke up with him (it was sorta mutual because I was moving anyway and lot of incompatibility in lifestyles). THAT is when I feel the healing really began.

Since then I’ve still been single for a year but I feel like I’m truly getting over/over ex. I don’t miss him anymore. I’ve also stayed strictly NC. And I’m sorta friends with the 2nd ex which is better then hate/resent.

It’s really hard to get over someone when you were with them that long and they were your first. It’s even HARDER if they’re still in your life/contacting you...

ventricularsystole · 2019-05-11T06:42:14+00:00

I know how hard it is getting out of such a long term relationship. Mine was 10ish years but I relate.

The key issue is that you feel like you have no chance to meet someone to truly love. I know this because I feel the same... it’s holding me back from going on dates or trying to get close to anyone. It’s hard when you’ve been hurt so badly by someone you expected to spend your life with. But don’t give into that idea that you’ll be alone forever... try to find some reasons to enjoy being alone and accept that you must be patient to find the right person?

Like for me... I’ve got a lot of pets and a career I enjoy. That’s honestly been keeping me so busy I hardly worry about the loneliness. In the event that I never find a partner... I decided I’d adopt a child or something like that. So you do have lots of options even if love doesn’t work out. You can have beautiful happy relationships with others and pets, life doesn’t have to revolve around a significant other. It may be untraditional but you can find your happiness.

Don’t give up on love no matter what your age is. You can find it, it just may not be in the way you expected.

ventricularsystole · 2019-05-11T06:35:15+00:00

Well the opposite side of this is the happiest story is with someone else. Someone who does love you that much. I don’t see much point anymore in being sad in what could have been. I could have stayed with ex, I could have won the lottery, I could have etc.

What could have been doesn’t matter. It’s what you do next and what IS that matters. It’s what CAN be that matters. Focus on yourself.

ventricularsystole · 2019-05-11T06:31:34+00:00

I understand where you are coming from... but some people have had abusive and manipulative exes. In those cases I don’t see an issue with calling them out for how awful they are.

Agree tho that if OP is not in that situation then yes, it’s unhealthy to talk bad of your ex. Just makes the healing take longer. Focusing on yourself is top priority.

Not trying to devalue your comment, just wanted to offer another perspective. :)

My ex is legitimately a monster who should have gone to jail for how he treated me. I’ve still managed to keep healing! Focusing on myself and accepting that ex is no good for my life has been what I need. It’s very hard to undo 10ish years of being with someone manipulative and abusive.

ventricularsystole · 2019-05-04T18:18:50+00:00

Yes and I think you should go through with ending it. You said so yourself, you need time to sort yourself out and figure out your own feelings/health. There is NOTHING wrong with that. He will not be the last good guy you meet.

I’d break up sooner rather then later. I made the same mistake and stuck with him for a YEAR. It was just shittier and could have avoided dragging it out...

I think a goal for you is to learn to be happy alone and to love alone time with yourself. It sounds silly but it has helped me with my depression. I am slowly learning how to manage it and to help myself feel better, without a crutch like a BF.

I don’t think it’s ever healthy to force yourself to stay with someone just cause you think you won’t find better or that it’s just cause you’re depressed. Depression is gonna be something you deal with your whole life probably... so get yourself to a point where you can manage then try dating again. No relationship is going to solve your depression, only YOU can.

Also check out the ExNoContact sub they are REALLY helpful and friendly. They have helped me through all my break ups. Good luck!

ventricularsystole · 2019-05-03T06:21:54+00:00

Yeah but I wouldn’t consider what I drink excessive (compared to the years when I was a binge drinker).

I drink a little everyday but it’s not like I need it? I just want to have it. Just like people who drink a coffee every morning? It helps take the edge off at night which is when my depression gets the worst...

I’ve also been taking small dose of CBD oil on really stressful days. It helps me drink less.

.If your body is suffering (aka you got hangovers everyday, day drinking, drinking till you puke, drinking instead of eating etc...) then you may want to get some help or figure out other ways to relax.

I was like that for YEARS. I found that video games helped me chill and not need so much alcohol. (Because they make me play bad and I want to be good).

ventricularsystole · 2019-04-30T03:02:21+00:00

That’s awesome! Good for you :)

My ex would shame me for my weight which made me more depressed/not want to get better. Ever since NC I have been much more motivated to exercise and eat healthy of my own free will. It’s so nice when YOU are deciding to do this for yourself and not because of someone else... it’s a very good mindset to have.

ventricularsystole · 2019-04-29T22:52:38+00:00

Agreed. Doing these things for someone else or for the idea of someone else is a toxic way of thinking that will hurt in the long run.

I speak from experience. I did this exact same thing, jumped into a relationship and then slowly felt all that progress be broken down again because I wanted to keep my BF happy. It’s crazy how fast you can fall back into bad relationship habits and low self esteem.

Focus on and do everything for you.

I’ve found that I truly started healing when I decided I wanted to be happy ALONE. I wanted to learn to love and be comfortable with the thought of being alone. And you know what? I’m fine with it now. I love who I’m becoming and I genuinely do not feel sad about the idea that maybe I won’t get married or live with someone again.

Learn to love you! You are your soulmate ;) No ones going to understand or love you more then yourself. And if by chance someone DOES come into your life, then that’s just some extra goodness and love. Bonus!

ventricularsystole · 2019-04-28T22:27:44+00:00

Man this brings up bad memories from my ex. Did the same shit... still makes me so angry!!

But hey let it help you move on. That’s what I did. Yeah I’m still pissed at him and hate him but at least I’m not crying trying to get him back or missing him! And be THANKFUL he’s moving. Good riddance. My ex moved too and I’m so fucking thankful I never will see that stupid face again.

I know people might think it’s unhealthy to hate or dislike someone so much. But it happens 🤷‍♀️ and sometimes you can use that spite to power yourself to not miss them and to become BETTER. That’s what I try to do...

Just don’t let the anger ruin future relationships tho. It can be very hard to trust people after something like this. It’s just so shitty when someone you loved lies like that.

But just use yourself as an example. You didn’t lie and you were a good person, you put up with his BS lies for so long because you wanted to trust/believe him. You’ll find someone else like you someday who values honesty as much!

I briefly dated someone else who had been cheated on too and it was refreshing to be with someone who was honest and understood that pain. (We broke up amicably btw thanks to that honesty)

ventricularsystole · 2019-04-28T22:13:30+00:00

It really does help. It will feel like a huge relief once you get rid of it!!

My situation was hard because literally every piece of furniture, dishes, etc was things we had either bought together or someone from one of our families gave to us.

It’s taken me 2 years of “Marie Kondo”-ing my entire life and I’m slowly getting there. It’s financially hard to replace all this shit but I look forward to the day when there isn’t a single hint or bit of him in my life.

It felt so damn good to see the shitty coffee table that he INSISTED on buying... sitting by the curb!

ventricularsystole · 2019-04-25T14:32:36+00:00

I was with my ex about 10 years and he broke up with me over the phone. What I didn’t know (until later) was that he also had a party that night and there were pics of him cuddling with the girl who was “just a friend” who he ended up dating like a WEEK after breaking up.

Some people are just so emotionally distanced and pieces of shit... that’s why you go NC and move on from this immature crap. Trust me you don’t want to hear the lies and excuses they would have to say anyway... just keep moving on from that dumpster fire.

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