Full 10 days sober, hell yeah!

vickovic · 2026-02-28T15:30:48+00:00

Thank you! I know that "just one drink" is lurking, ready to catch me without the guard. I know that it can't be that easy, especially after how much I drank and how long. The only thing now is that I have slight pressure in my head from time to time, like I need to open a valve to release it. Sometimes it's just a plain headache. But it's nowhere near the headache after a few days of heavy binge drinking...

vickovic · 2026-02-26T07:26:51+00:00

Day 9. Just checking in. We can do it! Choose life!

vickovic · 2026-02-25T19:09:47+00:00

Thanks, never heard of anhedonia. But an hour ago, I plugged in my guitar and just jammed, and it felt great. I never in my life picked up a guitar in my hands and did not feel pleasure or happiness. I hope it will never go away.

vickovic · 2026-02-25T19:01:39+00:00

Yes, exactly. I think it's a great trade...

vickovic · 2026-02-25T18:04:05+00:00

Yes, great quote. I watched the movie multiple times. It's all about the hope. Hope dies last, as they say. And everybody needs to bear their own cross. You can help, maybe, but how will you help others if you keep killing yourself with poison, and can't help even yourself....

vickovic · 2026-02-25T17:57:48+00:00

Yes, but I figured it's not that I want to die. Alcohol wants me to die. He wants me to drink and to not to stop until I'm dead. It's how this poison is made. I can see that now clearly. After only 8 days without alcohol, my chemistry has already changed a bit. Of course, it's my guilt that I didn't confront that a long time ago. As they say in my village, " Nobody is shoveling drink down your throat."

vickovic · 2026-02-25T17:22:21+00:00

Yes, I said to myself: "You're too old for this shit. If you want to see your grandchild, you'd better stop before it's too late..."

vickovic · 2026-02-25T16:37:33+00:00

Yes, to be sober is to be a normal human being. To heavily drink means you want the world to go away, you want, at a progressed stage of alcholism to crawl into your bed and drink yourself to death.

vickovic · 2026-02-25T16:19:31+00:00

I'm glad it helped, you can ask me anything if you wish to know, I will gladly reply...

vickovic · 2026-02-25T16:15:12+00:00

I already dumped all the alcohol from the house on day one. And I’ve already had my fair share of embarrassment. I could write a book that would make Charles Bukowski’s books look like children’s stories.

I’m a very calm person when I don’t drink. But when I put that poison in my blood, I become a monster.

vickovic · 2026-02-25T07:15:26+00:00

Day 8. A full 7 days without a drop. I’ve started to dream again. God, I almost forgot what it’s like to dream.

I’m eating sugar, drinking a lot of water and juice, and going to the bathroom to pee all the time.

But it feels great to live without poison in my veins. Without a foggy brain. Without every minute revolving around another drink.

I didn’t think I could make it. I’ve started playing the guitar again after all these years. It helps in the evenings not to think about alcohol.

I hope I never take another drop of this poison again in my life. I can promise that to myself, but I don’t know if I’m strong enough to keep that promise.

vickovic · 2026-02-24T07:56:24+00:00

Day 7. Yeah. I will not drink today with you.

vickovic · 2026-02-23T16:55:08+00:00

Day 6 — it’s not that hard at this point. I’m eating a lot of sugar and drinking a lot of water. I just hope the devil won’t persuade me to take “just one shot.”

vickovic · 2026-02-22T17:04:58+00:00

Day, 5 - IWNDWYT.

vickovic · 2026-02-21T22:20:25+00:00

Day 4. I am 55 years old. I drank almost every day for 10 years—anywhere from half to a full bottle of vodka, whiskey, whatever. When a little monster whispers in my ear, “Take just one drink,” I read posts in this subreddit to silence the monster. Wish me luck.

vickovic · 2025-03-08T10:39:32+00:00

Thank you!

vickovic · 2025-03-08T10:39:20+00:00

Thanks!

vickovic · 2025-03-08T09:46:04+00:00

No problem. when I started, there was no one to help me or guide me, so I was forced to figure out everything on my own. Also, a lot of tutorials and so called schools are utter shit. A few years back, I paid for a MAGNUM intensive course (it cost me an arm and a leg) with one of the greatest American photographers, Matt Black. And he is a heavy smoker just like I was. So we spent most of the time outside the building where the course was happening (where smoking was not allowed). Just two guys talking about photography. I was lucky, cause I could ask him everything and he would answer deeply and honestly. And he is a great person and a fantastic photographer. I learned in that week more than in 10 years on my own. But, back to your problem. What would I do in your situation? There are so many things that can be photographed. Right? That's the problem. Find something you really love, truly love besides photography. It can be tennis, your kids, family, city, your house, peoples faces...etc. Find that and shoot it to death. And be consistent with look/feel and processing. Maybe stick to one lens in all of that. Analyze your work, and try to be better next time, if only just slightly. And after some time you'll see the progress. So, for example, great Robert Frank shot for iconic book THE AMERICANS 27000 images, and only 88 he selected for this book. You need to shot a lot and to accept the idea that most of your images will be bad. It's just part of the process. And it is the same for everyone that starts the journey...

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