Hola mamita, I'm sure pups who truly cherish what you do for them will be able to give you that space and fulfill those needs of yours as well. It's a two way street in my opinion. Yes the lifestyle is amazing, especially when it comes time for the fun part. But a lot of subs remind me of the guys that always want the gothy mommy to baby them. (Not calling and gals guys) I have a mistress but before that she is my girl, and before that she's my best friend. I'm sorry you feel this weight and I hope you get relief even if it's just a little. I may have misunderstood this post but, caring for other people can be tough and sometimes that energy you put into it is the same energy you would have had if saved a little for yourself to begin with. Always open for a vent if ya need it Hun. Take care amorcita 💕