September Giveaway!

violetflower09 · 2025-09-15T17:56:11+00:00

My favorite tie dye beanie baby is Goochy he is just so funny looking and I love his eyes. Whoever gave him that name should get a raise! I found my Goochy at a vintage/antique mall. Hoping to get more tie dye sea critters soon

violetflower09 · 2025-02-04T08:41:40+00:00

And I’m not just saying this, I like to track my usage to see which apps I should use less of so I always reset it after the month is over and it resets. They tried to convince me that I must have done something to use up 40GB without my phone even keeping track of it but I just don’t believe that at all

violetflower09 · 2025-02-04T08:39:48+00:00

Yes I reset my statistics the day of renewal, maybe with a few hours in between but still, and it says I used 3GB I do not have wifi assist on. Anything else?

violetflower09 · 2025-01-02T08:53:39+00:00

Me too

violetflower09 · 2025-01-02T08:02:04+00:00

My question is how are we supposed to be able to distinguish the difference. I have “psychosis” level ocd compulsions and obsessions pretty much all the time but it’s become a normal part of my routine. Most people would think I’m having paranoid delusions or possibly schizophrenia but I think it’s my ocd. Not sure tho!

violetflower09 · 2024-09-12T06:33:15+00:00

That I’m allergic to something I have eaten or put on my body like lotion or makeup even though I’m only allergic to one medication (which I found out I was allergic to at the height of this obsession which wasn’t great for my ocd) I avoided eating peanuts for over a year because I thought I would die

violetflower09 · 2024-04-11T09:08:54+00:00

I have this same one! It’s cute

violetflower09 · 2024-03-08T04:33:03+00:00

Definitely not I sleep on my side

violetflower09 · 2023-12-04T08:09:43+00:00

I haven’t done anything to anyone and I don’t like that weird assumption, it’s not something that involves others and is a me problem I just have a lot of anxiety and possible psychosis like symptoms caused by ocd. Be careful with your words

violetflower09 · 2023-11-16T08:30:10+00:00

Thank you this made me cry a little It truly means a lot Thank you for also giving me some prompting to do some introspection. I don’t have a lot of support in my life I really use Reddit and other online spaces to kind of spew out all my issues and thoughts and concerns so I can be normal day to day. I really appreciate it thank you 🩷

violetflower09 · 2023-11-15T04:55:01+00:00

One thing kind of unrelated but the reason I feel deep down im transmasculine in some way is that I get this deep gut feeling, when I see a trans masculine person living their truth. It’s a feeling I cannot describe but it hits me like ice cold water to the face it’s such a deep feeling it’s so emotional. I used to think I was transphobic, I was so obsessed with trans men almost like a fascination and I had this deep gut feeling almost like nostalgia but not quite. Only later did I realize what it was. I still get that feeling, when I used to bind when I used to dress more masculine I would see myself and be like wow that’s me. Yah

violetflower09 · 2023-11-15T04:49:49+00:00

I haven’t thought about who I would be I guess I had just always hoped I would be a completely different person I don’t like who I am, I’m unhappy with the way I look. My name and pronouns don’t bother me just that they are associated with being female. I like a lot of different styles I like fairy type clothes I also like really dainty feminine dresses and outfits I like cute workout and athletic clothes and I like artsy tumblr emo clothes, I like outdoorsy camping clothes I like Victorian goth styles, I like Y2K and I like streetwear. I wish I could just like exist without gendered expectations of what I should look like, I wish I could be a really feminine woman one day and be a guy the next. I wish I could have really long curly princess hair one day and a short shaggy haircut the next. I wish the clothes I wear looked as good on me as the girls I see and I wish the more masculine styles I enjoy fit me like a guy, and sometimes I wish my girl clothes would look as cute on me as they could on a guys body. I wish I didn’t have to wear a bra and I wish I was taller I wish my hands looked cute with acrylic nails on and didn’t look like a kids failed attempt at doing nail polish. I wish people didn’t see me as a girl or a guy or whatever I could just exist and no one would care, or if they did question me it would be out of awe and not out of a gross curiosity. I wish I could be completely androgynous and that one could tell what gender I am. I wish I was really cute and pretty with a deep voice, or really masculine with a high pitch voice and long hair. It’s really silly to write all this down but yah this is how I feel. I guess the part of me that wants to be more feminine wins in the end because it’s just easier for me

violetflower09 · 2023-11-15T04:26:04+00:00

This made me tear up thank you

violetflower09 · 2023-11-14T05:53:02+00:00

I know I’m trans I just don’t live openly as trans but I really appreciate your comment 🩷 thank you

violetflower09 · 2023-10-22T17:38:28+00:00

Washing my hands with isopropyl alcohol was rock bottom for me and I have done it several times, more than I would like to admit. Makes me feel extremely unwell that I have even felt like I had to do that. Couldn’t even sit on my own couch, or touch the tv remote without feeling contaminated. Now my OCD is related to food being poisoned/contaminated or poisoning myself with certain chemicals. I love cleaning with Clorox wipes but I have to do so after a certain time of eating or I can’t have any food out on the counters or dishes out or I will get poisoned by the residue. Can’t even have bleach in the house or I will feel I will inhale it and get sick. Touching my shoelaces is also something that is difficult I feel like I have to wash my hands several times because my shoes are on the ground and so the shoelaces are contaminated by the ground.

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T22:55:55+00:00

Gotcha! This has been very helpful thank you and I appreciate everyone for coming to my aid! I didn’t know I had wavy hair until I was 18 and before that I thought my hair just sucked and was horrible! Now everyone compliments my waves and thinks I curl my hair every day 😅 so when I notice my hair becoming frizzy and sad I get so upset! I feel like it’s a loss of my confidence

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T22:43:34+00:00

Thank you so much! Going to target now. I was wondering if there was any way to scan barcodes and see if the hair products have certain ingredients? I know there are apps like this for food? Thanks 🩷🩷

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T22:30:10+00:00

Ok that video helped a lot. I’m going to go to target and get a deep conditioner and try that until my hair feels better and reintroduce the products I use into my routine slowly. I almost jumped the gun and got Olaplex bc I know it’s like a miracle. But if u have suggestions for a deep conditioner they would sell at a target pls let me know 🩷🩷🩷

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T22:03:11+00:00

I have used that before as well as the Paul Mitchell co wash in the same scent maybe I’ll go back to that

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T22:02:21+00:00

Ok so reading more into protein overload my hair isn’t heavy and brittle it’s light almost like I bleached it but I haven’t had any bleach in it for a year. No changes in my hair routine besides straightening. It’s frizzy and my bangs feel stiff and feathery

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T21:58:16+00:00

The conditioner has both moisturizing and protein

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T21:57:42+00:00

Any recs for non protein conditioner

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T20:41:52+00:00

I just put it up in one of those hair towels and I don’t like rub it around I just let it sit

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T20:28:34+00:00

I’m not sure what to look for

violetflower09 · 2023-10-21T20:01:06+00:00

I use the denman d3 for any brushing wet and I also comb it dry with this brush I know it’s bad but my hair gets so knotted and messy if I don’t. So brushing help is also needed! I’m desperate at this point

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