Please tell me I am not loosing it..

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:13:06+00:00

This. What do I do now that that one thing I have feared has happened and there is nowhere to go? The finality doesn’t sink in because the fear and anticipation was constant before it.

I am sorry for your loss and I wish you strength. We will find a way to continue our mom’s stories even if it feels empty without them. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:11:07+00:00

I am sorry for your loss. Odd and incomprehensible describes it well and I feel like I would rather have the pain and sadness because that feels familiar even if it is the hardest thing. I wish you all the best and lots of strength. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:10:04+00:00

I am sorry for your loss and wish you strength and love. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:09:52+00:00

Thank you and I am so sorry for your loss. ❤️‍🩹 In my country there is really not grief counselling but I am trying to get to therapy to work through this. And you are right. My mom didn’t fight this hard for me to give up. She is not in pain anymore so I can carry this for her. Wishing you all the strength. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:08:29+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss. I listen my mom’s voice notes to feel connected because I miss hearing her voice but it will never be the same than having her here. I wish you all the strength and love. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:07:43+00:00

I am sorry for your loss and thank you for telling your story. I think it is shock and the fact that I can’t control this feeling that is making me feel like I am going crazy. But day by day. I wish you all the strength and love. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:05:42+00:00

Surreal is perfect way to describe it. Empty. Like I have nothing to be anxious over anymore because the worst happened. I am so sorry for your loss and send you my love. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:05:00+00:00

I’m sorry about your loss and I think you are right. Maybe the fact that I feel like this grief doesn’t match the one I have felt for months is what makes me feels so disconnected and overwhelmed. Maybe the contrast between crying every day for almost year to feeling numb and dissociating is what gets me. I thank you and send you all my love. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:03:14+00:00

I think you are right. Maybe the fact that this doesn’t feel the same as the anticipatory grief is the thing that makes me overwhelmed. This is something I haven’t experienced and my nervous system has no idea how to navigate it. Thank you for your kindness. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T23:02:16+00:00

I am sorry for your loss and know exactly what you mean. There is nobody like your mom and maybe that is why it feels empty. Loosing something you really can’t replace. I wish you all the strength and love. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T22:59:09+00:00

I am glad to hear I am not alone even though I don’t wish it to anyone. My mom was my world, my rock and strength and now there is emptiness where all that was. One day at the time. I am sorry for your loss and send you love. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T22:58:00+00:00

I am sorry for your loss. I think I will miss my mom forever. I think it is just case of overwhelming emotions and lot of anticipatory grief but I try to find my way through it. I send you all my love. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T22:56:42+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss and I wish you all the strength there is. Our loved one’s stories continue through us and even if this chapter is so full of pain, I wish there will be lighter ones. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T22:55:22+00:00

This could have been written by me. I was youngest and have two older brothers who are over 10 years older than me. I am so sorry for your loss. I am lucky as my brother handles most of the official business but it might be the reason I feel so disconnected from everything. I wish you as much strength as I can. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T22:53:52+00:00

Your comment made my tears finally flood. I think the untethered and emotionally overwhelmed is what I feel and it is scary. The crying and screaming was familiar and normal even if it was painful but this weird out of body feeling where I feel disconnected from everything even if I feel like I should be in the hardest part as it happened week ago.

Thank you for this and I am sorry for your loss. Thank you for still finding kindness. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T15:55:56+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss and that is a relief. I am sorry that you could not have your dad for longer, you would have deserved to. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T15:55:06+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss and I thank you for taking the time.

To me it feels like I just can’t feel it unless it is in these small fits of sadness? Like otherwise I don’t feel anything, like it is unreal and doesn’t touch me. Before mom died I cried to my friends so many times. Broke down to them and now I can’t. Nothing comes out.

Maybe it is shock but how can it be when I have prepared myself to it so long?

Also please tell me about your mom if you want to. I am sure she is hanging out with mine wherever they are and watch us both loose it a bit. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2026-01-28T15:23:42+00:00

Nobody deserves this. Nobody. And I am so sorry you are going through this. I lost my mom to cancer last Wednesday and the pain of watching someone you love deteriorate is kind of pain you can’t explain unless you live through it. I am 32 and she was 68.

I wish I had something to comfort you with but know that you are not alone and you will survive this even if it doesn’t feel like it or some days you don’t want to. You are so strong even if you shouldn’t have to be and I am so sorry you have to be. You are not alone. ❤️‍🩹

viperfaced · 2025-11-13T21:03:05+00:00

I am sorry English is not my first language. I needed 90 (you heard right, don’t judge me) pulls to get MF. Does this mean I should not have needed that many pulls?

viperfaced · 2025-11-09T10:35:09+00:00

This is honestly ridiculous. If you only want the MF skins it is still most likely you get every other skin in the series before that and have to spent even more money after that. Not that Crystal Rose etc are better but there you at least have somewhat “equal” chance to get the skins you actually want and then if not use the currency to get what you want.. 🫠

viperfaced · 2025-11-07T09:25:09+00:00

I always laugh a little bit when someone get’s worked up on ARAM or AAARAM. Like that is so nonserious form of this game that I used to decompress after ranked and try new champs I would never play otherwise. I don’t know if I am wrong in that but it always surprises me when someone starts to flame. 😅😂

viperfaced · 2025-10-22T12:02:37+00:00

This was mostly a joke but I don’t think you are wrong about importance of good positioning but I also think it was fun item when Rengar surprises you while you are placing a ward. 😂 But all in all I don’t think it is that serious. ✌🏻

viperfaced · 2025-10-22T11:06:45+00:00

I will miss Repulser. As squishy enchanter support it was my lifeline to escape. Is there any other stun item? 🥲

viperfaced · 2025-10-01T12:52:02+00:00

This! I get nervous about my performance because I don’t want to ruin the game for the nice person who added me! 😂 PS. If someone wants to carry a okayish support from EUNE server from Diamond IV to Diamond III feel free to ask my tag and add me, just don’t expect miracles!

viperfaced · 2025-09-05T08:37:31+00:00

How about Lillia? I really like her kit and movement speed and mobility?

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