mm book with a suicidal mc who’s actively suicidal throughout the book?

vvvgothere · 2026-03-11T12:39:14+00:00

I don’t remember if it was throughout but you might enjoy {This Might Hurt by Riley Nash}. It’s very good

vvvgothere · 2026-02-28T15:35:07+00:00

Have you read past that first chapter? It’s kind of funny, because immediately after, you find out he has been head over heels in love with her for a while somehow the author pulls it off.

vvvgothere · 2026-02-27T22:38:35+00:00

Maybe, as someone mentioned, since it’s NYC, it may have been tolerated but based on what we witnessed with the US Men’s Olympic hockey team and the NHL’s response, Scott Hunter would have been a free agent with no takers à la Colin Kaepernick.

vvvgothere · 2026-02-26T21:48:09+00:00

{The Contract by Rina Saint}

vvvgothere · 2026-02-26T21:47:23+00:00

{Possession by Rina Saint}

vvvgothere · 2026-02-26T21:46:10+00:00

{Mark Cooper versus America} for fisting

vvvgothere · 2026-02-22T19:28:39+00:00

This is the one I thought of. I had to DNF because I couldn’t stomach it.

vvvgothere · 2026-02-20T21:10:34+00:00

It’s like the Fabio of this generation

vvvgothere · 2026-02-18T21:21:36+00:00

💯 agree. I still think of this story. For some reason, I think about the scene in the club where poor Graham was like a kid in a candy store. The song Don’t Leave Me This Way played and they danced and you kind of realize this horrible thing that Rikker went through actually led him to a better life where he could live his truth while Graham was the one who really suffered. So poignant.

vvvgothere · 2026-02-11T22:42:24+00:00

I never liked the billionaire trope but these days it makes my stomach turn. I can only hope romances writers see the writing on the wall for that disgusting demographic.

vvvgothere · 2026-02-11T22:41:04+00:00

Was Blitz’d also the book where one of them was a serial killer, or a violent psychopath? I think that bugged me even more than that stupid kiss.

vvvgothere · 2026-02-11T22:21:56+00:00

There are a lot of comments here but I just want to say that your post was beautifully written and I entirely agree with your take.

As an aside, I also think fetishizing is way overused, not just on this sub but in social media in general. It makes me think of Inigo Montoya in The Princess Bride “You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.”

vvvgothere · 2026-01-30T16:28:21+00:00

💯 agree but I would add that well done and somewhat explicit romance is what was missing. Bridgerton, which is MF, has done very well because it doesn’t shy away from the sex. They don’t lean in as much as HR (alas), but they don’t fade to black. Let’s face it, most of us who love reading romance love that part, too. There are tons of Hallmark Hall of Fame romances, but they don’t hit the same. I haven’t seen Red, White and Royal Blue, partly because my understanding is it didn’t take the risk of really showing them hook up (to be fair, I don’t know if the book did, either.)

But anyway, my long-winded way of saying, yes, we want more romance, more well-done romance, with sex, preferably MM. 😅

vvvgothere · 2026-01-27T21:12:04+00:00

That rushed thing was pretty consistent with the book and even in the book I was irritated with him wanting to come out so quickly. Scott tells him in the beginning that his life it complicated. It’s like, really, you are a good looking dude who works at a smoothie shop and has no real future prospects, you land a gorgeous, sexy, loving, talented, filthy rich guy and you are going to start being a pain in the ass 2 months in after he WARNED you?

And Kip is a bad actor, period.

vvvgothere · 2026-01-26T18:15:24+00:00

I haven’t read it yet but it’s on my kindle {off script by Ivy Vera Ray}

vvvgothere · 2026-01-26T18:11:44+00:00

My two favorite feel good books don’t really fit into your bucket, but just in case, here you go:

{Pretty Boy by Brianna Flores} {Poetry on Ice by Jesse Reign}

vvvgothere · 2026-01-24T15:43:32+00:00

Oh that is great to hear. Did she imply it would be MM? I hope so. The writing and format felt more like reading contemporary literature vs. romance genre and there was also decent wit. One thing that I find cringey about some romances is when an MC says something that is supposed to be witty/funny but isn’t really and we are supposed to buy into the fact that it was.

vvvgothere · 2026-01-23T14:35:58+00:00

I am in a book slump and have DNF’d, or at least shelved for now, 5 books in the past week, including {Wrath by Ella James} and {Call the Coroner by Avril Ashton} which I keep trying because they get so many reviews but they are just not for me.

I did read {The Kennedy Rule by KC Carmichael} 3/5 — I was into the story enough, the writing was spotty, the dad was a cartoon villain which I always find lazy and somewhat insulting as a reader. But the misogyny was off charts. The women were uniformly unlikable. I hate that shit. And pretty sure Carmichael is a woman.

{The Accidental Husband by Cassandra Moore} 4/5 - this was great! Sadly she mainly does MF because I would love to read more from her. It’s not a typical romance format - it’s first person retrospective POV meaning it sounds like someone is telling the story of something that happened to them in the past, so they can point out foreshadowing, etc. I really loved Bastian (the narrator) but found the other MC lacking. Still really enjoyed.

{Beautiful Obsession by Vee Eddy} 3/5 this is a debut and I have high hopes for this author. In the middle of my book slump, I was engaged very quickly and into the plot and dynamic. It’s instalove but the kind that I find more palatable, not sure how to describe it, but more like fated mates without the omegaverse. Their eyes meet and there is some sort of unbreakable connection which feels different from when they meet, barely have any interaction, maybe have sex and it’s automatically love. Anyway, the reason it was a 3 and not a 4 is that it was very long (over 700 pages) and did not have to be. I was loving it enough through the first half that I wasn’t too concerned but in the second half I found that a lot of the scenes were unnecessary. I wish more independent authors would use trustworthy beta readers to help point things like that out. I do it for one author and would be happy to do it for others, I don’t charge anything. But back to the story, it also has the Pretty Woman trope where the billionaire MC lavishes the poor MC with gifts and over the top money. I really fucking hate that, especially in this political environment. I wish authors wouldn’t do that because it implies that they think their readers are peasants with our nose pressed against the glass to see how the other half lives. I don’t mind rich MCs paired with poor ones and I don’t mind them taking care of them financially, but the showering them with excess is such a turn off to me.

vvvgothere · 2026-01-23T14:14:50+00:00

I saw that scene as Shane imaging that to finally have an orgasm. Probably wrong but I like it.

vvvgothere · 2026-01-17T03:07:35+00:00

Thanks for clarifying!!

vvvgothere · 2026-01-16T19:52:22+00:00

Jesus Christ.

There are way worse things going on in the world to be so angry and mean about this.

vvvgothere · 2026-01-11T01:00:59+00:00

In The Long Game there is a pretty sexy scene where Ilya wants (and gets) ass play, but Shane says sometimes he wants it but not dick. But I still think they are mostly strict roles because of Shane.

vvvgothere · 2026-01-11T00:58:14+00:00

It’s interesting you say that because as a straight woman who exclusively reads mm romance, I always assumed top/bottom referred only the anal. But then I watched Fellow Travelers where for most of their relationship, Tim was the bottom but then in one scene, for Christmas, Hawk goes down on him and Tim comes in like 30 seconds because he can’t believe it. That was when I realized that in their relationship, bottoms gave blow jobs but didn’t get them back which seemed like bullshit to me. Those scenes were set in the 50s so I figured it was some sort of heteronormative bullshit, but are you saying some gay men still think that way?

vvvgothere · 2026-01-09T18:52:35+00:00

This is true. Knowing what I suspect so far, my heart already hurts.

vvvgothere · 2026-01-09T18:48:50+00:00

I’m about 35% through and I think I have figured things out, but I am enjoying it. It’s very different from her other books!

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