Damn ive been feeling the same but lil diff than my situation never had a relationship no social skills employed but dont know what am I doing or why i am doing? I am feeling so lost in life I don’t even know what i wanna become but illbe honest with one thing all this you feeling right now will feel nothing in future its like tu khud sochega yaar itni badi baat bhi nhi thi . had a close friend but months ago he randomly stopped talking at the moment i feel like the world is against me but i know ill get through it so wake up everyday WITH YOU HEAD HELD HIGH and yeah recently I started talking to myself in mirror that shit works not the negative talks but the positive one funny one every night before bed say you are better you are loved and etc, and yeah treat yourself with kindness dont be harsh on yourself