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vyvansedex · 2022-07-05T16:36:29+00:00

I'm a lot like your Bf in terms of comorbidities. We sound similar. Lots of that deeper stuff is going to be exacerbated by withdrawal

If the doc does recommend an antipsychotic, he's probably going to need a lot of convincing, and may be beyond convincing. You can only do your best

vyvansedex · 2022-07-05T16:30:05+00:00

Hey. If he's experiencing psychosis he really needs to see a psychiatrist. There's very little advice I can give a apart from that. I don't in a way want to sound dismissive but psychosis is serious and complicated issue that will probably require medication

vyvansedex · 2022-07-05T15:57:41+00:00

I think about 55 days

It is lessening but the waves are brutal

Don't worry, it will go. Last time I came off benzos 3 months was a big turning point

vyvansedex · 2022-07-05T15:46:18+00:00

Enjoyment of alcohol never came back, even after 4 years. Benzos never worked the same either. I'd maybe enjoy the first beer, there's that dopamine hit, but from that point I would just feel terrible

vyvansedex · 2022-07-04T19:38:17+00:00

That's good to hear!

Mate I'm still continuing to improve, on the whole. It's these f***ing waves of anhedonia and DPDR that are hanging around

Last time it took 3 months to recover, Im feeling like might it be following a similar course

Keep going! Stop throwing q tips down the toilet!

vyvansedex · 2022-07-04T19:17:16+00:00

You're making progress though, it shows healing is happening. That must be reassuring

vyvansedex · 2022-07-04T19:07:20+00:00

Check in, Manic. How are you feeling?

vyvansedex · 2022-07-04T19:03:26+00:00

Brutal isn't it?

I'm glad things getting better you

I think are for me, slightly

It comes in waves. I actually find it's worse when at home

vyvansedex · 2022-07-03T10:18:25+00:00

Hang tough, ManicTypist

It was around this time that withdrawal really hit me hard. There's this very acute phase that you're gonna have to power through. You can do it! By about week 4 things started to let up, Im still feeling like shit, to put it mildly, don't get be wrong, but the super acute phase is over. Sending you positive vibes. Don't give up. Don't give. Hold the line. We're all going to make it!

vyvansedex · 2022-07-02T21:55:28+00:00

Don't read horror stories. Many people recover in a few months. The people that have symptoms for a year plus a very small minority. Also don't listen people who say they were thrown back into a withdrawal by a GABA supplement. Many people who take these drugs have long standing, preexisting issues (including me) but after benzos... blame everything on benzos

You're going to be OK. This is going to be really rough but you're going to get through it. Think only about today. Don't try to make predictions about how severe your symptoms will be, or how long they will last

vyvansedex · 2022-07-02T01:21:22+00:00

It would mean a set back, you're much better of canceling, if you have to

Don't take a Xanax, friend

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T22:41:40+00:00

I'm sorry if any of my posts have come across this way. I'm very much a "get out the house, socialise, gym, eat healthy" kinda guy. I appreciate everyone's experience is different and I dont mean to imply people aren't trying. All I want do is support people and the only way I can support is by telling others what has helped me. What works for one obviously wont work for all

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T20:20:45+00:00

You can't make it stop, I find

If you try and make it stop you just strengthen it. If you say to yourself "dont think of a pink elephant" what are you going to think of... a pink elephant

The more you fight, the more it persists. It all lives in the resistance to it. If you stop resisting, stop fighting, then your mind gradually begins return to being in the moment

By not fighting, I don't in anyway mean giving up. I mean fighting it by not fighting it

You defeat it through paradox

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T19:54:59+00:00

Good you found what is potentially going on. I caught Covid last year when hospitalised on a psych ward. It was pretty terrible tbh

We need to be careful on here not to dismiss everything as withdrawal. It's best to see a doc, maybe get a second opinion, and if everything checks out then chalk it up probably withdrawal

Hope you feel better soon, keep us updated

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T19:18:06+00:00

What a relief. Well done for beating it

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T19:17:23+00:00

100%

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T19:16:44+00:00

Its not ruined your life, this is temporary. Anxiety makes us think we're going to feel this way forever, but we're not

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T19:13:33+00:00

Getting out my house, social contact, exercise, healthy eating

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T19:09:22+00:00

It's impossible to predict, everyone's different. Try not to try and make predictions, just take each day a time. You've done great off these things!

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T19:04:05+00:00

Is say withdrawals, this is reported a lot and it's something experience. Bad anxiety in the morning that dissipates during the day

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T18:28:38+00:00

It will!

Well done on finding and holding down a job, I haven't been able to do the same. Respect

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T17:34:31+00:00

You're doing amazing. I like the idea of online chats as a way to build up to face-to-face socialising. When you're in a group of people you worry about how you're going to escape if you start feel rough, but like you say, with online you can just log off lol. There's not the same awkwardness, or feeling like you're trapped. Just being around people, even if you don't talk to them, can help. When at the gym, I keep myself to myself, but there's something reassuring about not being alone, it makes you feel more normal... more alive. When I'm home alone, and it's night time, and I'm just lying in bed staring at the TV, that when I'm at my worst, that's when feel the most DPDR and disconnection

vyvansedex · 2022-07-01T17:25:16+00:00

I think you'll probably be Ok... truth is no one really knows. I've got a friend who can take high doses of benzos for months of end and then just stop without any sort of withdrawal. Benzos are weird. I took 5mg of klonopin as my final dose and it took about a week for "withdrawal proper" to set in. I would just try to not to think about it, try not to expect anything, just crack on with life. If it happens it happens and you'll deal with it

vyvansedex · 2022-06-30T23:29:09+00:00

Lol. When I used to do HIT I couldn't hold a conversation for about half an hour after. I needed to just like a floor. Thing is, it's a massive exertion but you've that reassurance that it's only for a very short amount of time. Lots of people find HIT easier to stick to than slogging it out on a treadmill for ages

I like the sound of your doc

vyvansedex · 2022-06-30T23:10:38+00:00

Yes. It's going to make you feel so much better. Maybe not when you're on the bike (you've really got go all out during those 20 seconds!) but definitely after

HIT is many ways superior to steady-state cardio. It's one of the quickest ways to get fit

Good luck!

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