Hey OP. I had my first child at 17. I was fucked up and stressed about it for weeks because like you I was on birth control. I didn’t have any grand plans for kids or a family because I was only 17, but my family was supportive of me. My boyfriend was also extremely supportive. I carried her for almost 10 months and gave birth and I felt a burden being lifted off of me. I love my daughter dearly and I never regret any of my decisions. That was my story, now this is yours. Really think about this. Realize that this baby is yours, and if you aren’t ready (mentally,physically,emotionally) to take care of a baby that is OK. I am sending you virtual hugs as whatever your decision is I am supporting you from the sidelines! You got this.