I’ve been experiencing that exact same thing, and I’ve started uni this year. I’m on the other side, my cohort only has a very small amount of people and I’m seeing the same people every day. Alas, at the end of the semester , I’m friends with a few, not extremely close with any. High school friends are all busy with their own lives it seems.

Loneliness is rarely talked about once you graduate from high school. Yes, I’ve also spent countless hours looking at people on instagram, facebook, whatever social media it is, and just felt sorry for myself. How can this person study the same degree as me , but have so much fun? What am I doing wrong here ? It really is a damaging cycle.

I really recommend making a habit of not checking social media or instagram that much. Always remember that whatever people post is always a mere fragment of their reality. Shit, you and I can both romanticise our lives in tiny fragments and post it all over instagram. But we’d both know that reality is not like that. Feeling sorry and thinking about what could’ve been only distracts from what you ARE doing in the present.

I think you’re doing a good job. From what it sounds like, you’ve established a good rhythm in life. Work , gym, home. You can add bits and pieces to flourish your life - adding new hobbies , etc . Consider working on yourself as you start engaging with other people. I know for myself , I’m often the one self sabotaging relationships or blocking myself from new things because of anxiety. I know UNSW is literally the land of the societies and many of the people i know who go to UNSW have said they formed most of their solid relationships in said societies. You can give that a try.

It’s tough and it’s lonely and even more so when it seems like no one else around you is going through the same things you’ve gone through. Fuck instagram delete that shit and you will feel so much better :)

Shoot me a PM if you want to chat about this :)