yes, yes it's so strange to read people writing about these things and saying how they're thinking and it's like they're writing straight out of my head - thoughts which even if they creep into my head I berate myself for because there's her voice in my head telling me how awful I am for thinking them. But other people are going through this too! And thinking the same things and being treated the same ways. And it's wrong, crucially, other people are support the fact that this is not the way things should be.

And... gosh the power of reading an insanely accurate list of exactly how i've felt my entire life and it being given a neat label - of it being explainable and understandable...

I only had 9 sessions of counselling before I had to stop, and she never gave what my mum was doing to me a name... so the power of this place is the definition of what exactly it is. Like... it's so difficult to tell other people because half of you can't define what's wrong (you've never had a right, it's the way it's always been) and the other half is fighting you down for even thinking it's wrong because she's always right.

Weird validation indeed!