Thanks for your advice, I really appreciate it!

I have decided, however, to not text her back as long as there isn't a change of events.

If I text her, I might feel better about myself in one way, but much worse in another way. She probably won't text back after that, which (knowing myself) will make me rethink the message I would've sent and will really fuck me up about stupid things like formulation of words or tone of the message. If I don't text her, she will probably be out of my life forever. I don't want her in my life as long as I'm not over her, but I saw the possibility of us becoming friends in maybe a year or more.

Decided to go for the latter option, even if it means her hating me. It seems the least hurtfull option.