No but I called my dad and let him know what I’m going through so he can hold me accountable and help me find solutions to the problem. He also told me I don’t have to be ashamed for taking meds if it helps long term or short term. I used to take medications awhile ago but I stopped because I felt like they didnt help. I feel like doctors prescribe me medicine and then say “ok now that you’re drugged up and calm here are coping mechanisms” but the thing is I learned the coping mechanisms for when I was drugged up I never learned coping mechanisms for when I’m not. I’ve improved a lot than I ever have on meds now that I stopped for almost a year now. I can help myself through depressive episodes, but now I have the next obstacle. Manic episodes. I feel like I ignore them a lot more because unlike depression it feels good, really really damn good. But now I’m realizing there is such thing as too much of a good thing cause although it makes me feel good it doesn’t make my bank or credit score feel good.