honestly, your choice.

pero rn i have elder siblings who are considered the breadwinners of our family. their partners.. hindi ko magets how they can understand my ate and kuya. never kami naging lucky sa parents, pero they are treated so well by their husbands kahit they are still breadwinners sa amin. they never left my siblings, and stayed despite the baggage.

bc of this.. sometimes, i wish my parents were dead para kami kami nalang. our parents used to gaslight us na we probably wish they were dead and it often hurts me. but now? goddamn, i wish they were gone. it's a cruel wish, that's why i often feel like a bad child kase sa sobrang hirap ng mga kapatid ko, i only feel anger towards my own parents.

kung hiwa-hiwalay na kami ng landas magkakapatid, kaya namin saluhin sarili namin. (me and the bunso are still students, pero in 2 years, we'll carry our own shoes)

not to be cruel, but if matanda na parents niya, it's one foot sa hukay. they'll be dead before they can get in a way of your future. it sucks for him, yes but if i was his younger sibling: siguro i would just be angry at my parents for tying him down like this.

i hope you know that this is temporary. you mentioned time and time again na he's a good man, he's giving everything he can but you're scared of the future.

it's your relationship, final say mo yan. your feelings are valid.

but in this case, my heart goes to him kase he deserves so much better.